crystalicbabe

ugh... it's officially summer now... .

I feel like crap lately.  I can't sleep normal, and its totally messing with everything in my schedule.  I gained back 4lbs! That really irritates me.  I wish for once something would work out. ...

     When you look at me, you might think you know me.  You don't.  The cold, hard truth is, I don't even know me sometimes.  I'm a shadow of a person, filled in by the air around me. ...

In the last couple of months I've had a lot of bad luck.  Stuff keeps breaking on me. My mirrorMy desk LampMy scaleMy Mp3 playerMy T.V.My DeskMy filing cabinet And thus, I am currently leading a...

Well, the battery in my scale died, which kinda upsets me.  So I need to get a new battery soon.  If I don't it might drive me insane, all this not knowing... I don't know for how long I can do...

well.. its been an ok day I suppose... I did get two wonka candy bars for 51cents .. hahah dumb cashier guy lol

I wonder how some people can simply be so damned stupid?  Some people just don't seem to get it.  I don't see what part of I'm not having casual sex anymore is so hard to understand...

ugh... I feel like crap.  I'm getting sick again.  plus my allergies are bugging me .. so it's a double ugh... =[

Idk.. I've been really blah lately .. and last night I just couldn't sleep.. =[

What does it take    for me to not hate myself?                               for me to not obsess over how I look?                          ...

Well, I made it through my birthday.  Honestly, it sucked.  I spend almost the whole day alone in my room.  My parents never even said happy birthday to me.  The ONLY mention of my birthday I got...

well. .today is going ok I guess... I've made it so far today with out purging... but all I've eaten was chips and a cliff bar.. so idk.. I guess I might eat dinner, but I don't know for sure yet......

Well, today is not such a good day.  I slipped up, and after 81 days of no purging, I did.  It's like I can't fully stop.  That was the longest I've gone without purging in years, and I just...

Well, my parents are being down right stupid at this point.  The other day my mom left a note out for me, a NOTE.  She was HOME!! and so was I.  But she leaves a note? It says she will no longer...

so.. I might be moving out of my parents house because they are being ridiculous...