Maybe Baby #2

So, things are not going as well as I had hoped.  My back had improved, but it was short lived.  After about a week of relief it acted up again, and was much worse than the last time.  I went to the local ER and the did X-Rays, so it's not from an injury.  I pretty much have to wait it out and see if it gets better. 
 
Also, I've been feeling rather ill lately, and it worries me.  I think I could be pregnant again.  I won't know for sure for a couple weeks.  I feel exactly as I did in the beginning of my pregnancy with my little Rosemary.  I'm terrified, I don't want to imagine how he will react if I am.  I know how bad it was with Rose, and I don't want to think of how bad it would be now since he is still angry about us having her.  I just know he would push for an abortion, and I just couldn't do it.  I love my little girl, and I couldn't imagine what it would have been like if I had done what he wanted. I just don't know.  I really want another baby, but I don't know how he is going to react, and I don't know if I could do it alone.  I'm so scared of what to do next.