Mjay13
Status: Feel like I’m falling back to rock bottom
Mood:
Horrible
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- The MaskI look down at my arms, and hate the scars I see, I look in the mirror and despise what’s looking back at me.The stomach, the thighs, the face. The ‘resting’ heart beating like Its’ just been in a race. It’s like a black hole with...
- I'm not sure how much I can take, I'm lost and alone. I worked so hard, loved my job, dedicated my life to it, I lost my job. I did so much, cared so much, and it's never enough because of a bully and someone else's manipulative ways. I worked 70hrs...
- So here I am, I made it but I’m undeserving. Almost every day, I have to convince myself there is even a tomorrow. There is no place to play here for anxious paranoia, negative thoughts, despair, pain, memories or bad days, but all that showed up...
- Insomnia, RLS, depression, Anxiety, I could continue but you get the picture, I just want to sleep. I want to sleep and wake up and feel well, feel free software rested,I want to see some light between the storm clouds.Things at work are still very...
- Morning all,So sorry to bother you all, exhaustion has a new meaning. I've forgotten what sleep is. The latest agenda is work, On call and more work. I absolutely love my job and Have worked really hard to get to where I am.I've been having some...
- So everything feels pointless. I have no plan, but so much thought around just letting go.I'm in pain, daily, mentally, physically and I can't remember the last time I truly had a 'good day' some better days, times when I've laughed and felt...
- Sorry guys, I didn't know where to go, I feel lost, scared, anxious, I want to scream, or cry or both. Honestly, I don't really have any new Covid related anxieties. I've supported my team (deputise in a care setting) through the pandemic and whilst...
- I'm struggling so much, I'm angry and irritable almost all of the time. My fiancé and I are having issues, my careers' in tatters and my friends are all becoming increasingly distant, (not that I blame them, I don't want to be around this version...
- Hello All,you guys and girls have given me strength and support before and i need some advice.Living with depression for 10+years but diagnosed after a particularly rough patch 2 1/2 years ago. Also have Anxiety, and several physical ailments that...
- So I haven’t posted for what seems like forever, I’d love to say I’ve been better, but in reality, I just don’t know what to say anymore. I keep coming back here when I’m having a bad time, reaching out to crisis prevention lines once or...
- hey, so I haven’t posted for a while.life has been pretty hectic... massive ups... massive crashes back down.i feel guilty for being depressed. I got engaged on Sunday and in terms of my relationship with him, I’ve never been happier so far......
- i thought I was doing okay, turns out I was just letting it all build again, today I finally snapped, Broke down. Cried like an absolute mess on my boss’s shoulder, good job she is understanding... my potential to relapse right now is through...
- So although I’ve been feeling pretty shitty. I have managed to avoid self harm for 4 1/2 weeks. I can’t stop thinking about it today the urge is growing and I’ve tried every distraction and coping mechanism I can. I’m sorry guys I just...
- i feel like everyone around me is struggling, I am trying my hardest to help them, to support them physically, mentally and financially. I’m barely keeping my own head above water, Self harm relapse, no interest in food, stress, insomnia... I...
- just want to scream! I’m struggling so much but keeping it all tucked safely away most of the time but panic attacks and feelings that I could crumble at any moment keep popping up to remind me that I’m not okay, I’m far from it. Apparently I...