Mjay13
Status: Feel like I’m falling back to rock bottom
Mood:
Horrible
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- Hello all, how is everybody doing?. So I haven’t posted in a while, I’d love to say that’s because I have been doing better, but that would be lying. I’m feeling broken and alone. How are you all friends?
- im tired. Walking home from work tonight and the thoughts of stepping out into the road at the wrong time we’re all consuming. I wouldn’t do it, partly, mainly because that wouldn’t be fair to the drivers. But the thoughts scared me. I don’t...
- i feel like I’m losing it. My head is all over the place. I can’t concentrate. My boyfriend has just been given a cancer diagnosis, the situation could be much worse but still, it’s not good, the man I love has cancer. I will be his rock and I...
- im Broken now, I don’t want to carry on feeling like this. I keep telling myself that I NEED to be here for my family. But right now, I just don’t want to carry on feeling. Waves of pain and intense emotion along side being empty and feeling so...
- Im fed up of chasing friends. Texting first, I always check in to see how they are, ask about their families. Ask to meet up to get fobbed off with excuses or just ignored. We’re busy people I get it. We’ve all got jobs, loves, lives and...
- Today has been tough, you know when all those little things go wrong, build up adding to the mountain that’s already there and tips you over the edge? That kind of day. I didn’t, I don’t feel safe, I forced myself to go to the doctors and have...
- Feeling...lost today, I don’t know why, my workload has doubled, yet I have no motivation to do a thing. I’m on two courses to gain further qualifications. I’m exhausted but determined not to let anyone down. I tried the open university and...
- Hi all, new to this group. I have depression and anxiety and love to help others through their battles or journeys, anyone who needs a chat, I’m here, none of us are alone. I came here because I didn’t know what else to do, I’m so frustrated...
- Okay, so I have depression and have struggles with anxiety too.In my personal life I’m quite shy until you get to know me. I avoid fronting people on a daily basis ie ...ordering food/drinks, answering or making phone calls etc whenever...
- I’ve had a better week. I’ve gone a whole week without self harming. I feel proud that I made it that far but the negative thoughts are still there, everything I have been trying to ignore it’s creeping it’s way around like it’s ready to...
- So I couldn’t face work today. They think I have a migraine. It’s not totally untrue, sleep and rizatriptan have pretty much masked that for now though. In reality I simply couldn’t bare it. I feel useless. I can’t focus on anything. I...
- Friends tell me ‘I seem to be doing better’ why don’t I feel Like it? I feel lost. alone and crowded at the same time. It’s like I can’t breathe. The medication makes me feel on another planet, and that’s without the side...
- I look down at my arms, and hate the scars I see, I look in the mirror and despise what’s looking back at me.The tummy, the thighs, the face. The idle ‘resting’ heart beating like I’ts just been in a race. It’s like a black hole with no...
- This last week had made me remember how hard it is to be the ‘support network’ for someone with depression. My best friend is struggling. It’s safe to say I am too but I’m trying my upmost to lock it all away for the time being while I help...
- So the last couple of days I have felt really... emotional? As If I’m feeling everything I’ve suppressed for so long. my depression makes me feel empty most of the time, lost even... I just feel broken