Sorry guys, I didn't know where to go, I feel lost, scared, anxious, I want to scream, or cry or both.
Honestly, I don't really have any new Covid related anxieties. I've supported my team (deputise in a care setting) through the pandemic and whilst its horrible, stressful and busy, keeping those we care for, eachother and our loved ones safe is top priority.
I have been struggling, a lot, my depression seems to have hit a massive bump in the road and anxiety has been on the rise.
ive Harmed myself, felt guilt, anger and frustration toward myself and have no idea right now if I can keep pushing the dark thoughts away.
I have just started a new therapy and am so scared to have to tell my psychiatrist about everything that's led me here.
I was diagnosed with BP about 15 years ago, but of course, it went back farther than that. I was misdiagnosed for quite a while before they landed on a correct reason for my "craziness". I never hit an obvious manic period until my late 20s. Before that, they thought I was just chronically depressed. I think the reason they missed it for so long was because I had, what is now called, "dysphoric...
For the last three years there has been an increase of leaks that were almost worth gathering sliding glass doors from the roadside to cover with. I really didn't have any idea how to manage this. I would let my family know that I was on the bucket brigade, so couldn't join them if it was raining. They tookit as me joking about a smallleak. It's an old house, 1926. So damage had to be repaired as...