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  Strength

  Posted by: pchamber

  Posted: 07/01/2025

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  Today I'm trying to find strength but honestly I have not been this depressed in a very long time. Like everything in my body is ready to shut down and ball up and cry. I just feel so defeated. When I say I'm trying and all my efforts or for nothing. Just really not good today. 

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  Pain

  Posted by: pchamber

  Posted: 12/20/2020

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  Today I feel so horrible. It's like everything I have tried to do has failed. I wanna cry I wanna die but neither comes. I miss Brandon and I know I messed things up like I always do. I walked away when all I wanted was him but it hurts so much.

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  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 04/26/2020

  pchamber commented on the discussion Who am I.

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  Hopeful

  Posted by: pchamber

  Posted: 04/21/2020

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  Today is new day. Not sure how I feel. Last night I talked to a friend of mine, well he actually somewhat like a boyfriend but not really.  It's crazy cause he seems sad too. I want to be his support but it's hard cause he keeps trying take our friendship sexually.  I'm not ready for that with him. I care bout him so much and feel if we cross the line to sex it will ruin our relationship.  I know I can't separate my feelings from him.  They are too strong and casual sex with him would be...

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  Posted: 04/21/2020

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  Loneliness

  Posted by: pchamber

  Posted: 04/17/2020

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  I sit back and reflect on all that has happened.  I'm so hurt and sad but trying to move forward and leave it in the past. Just very hard

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  Reality

  Posted by: pchamber

  Posted: 04/05/2020

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  Today I sit here and I wonder do I enjoy being in pain emotionally as well as physically? I love with someone that I knew it was a bad idea until I must have to go back there with. I don't know why I care about him as much as I do he is always been that person that ring comes around my heart just small form and I wish that I could be with him. But I know that being with him was a bad idea because he does not feel the same way about me. So this time that I see are alone I'm glad I push myself to...

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  Venting

  Posted by: pchamber

  Posted: 03/27/2020

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  Today I feel good but melancholy.  I miss things I can't get back.  I know in reality it's time to move on but the hurt is still there just the same.  I'm like lost without real guidance. my heart is heavy and seemingly no where to turn. 

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  Who am I

  Posted by: pchamber

  Last Reply: pchamber 04/26/2020

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  Lately things have been pretty bad most days I don't know who I am afraid to be around people I'm afraid to even be around myself most of the time. Everyone so bad that when I get in public I'm so nervous I get nauseous I get the world start to spend it just seems like I'm in a Bubble and I don't know how get out of. I wish I had someone to talk to but I don't. Hundreds and hundreds of dollars speaking on people on the phone I still is ours off how I feel on the inside I'm just so confused I...

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  Posted: 10/24/2018

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  Moms sick

  Posted by: pchamber

  Last Reply: Tragic 08/30/2021

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  Hello everyone.  For years my mom and dad has done everything imaginable to hurt me. They lied to the court 3 years ago.and got my kids and now they are teaching my kids the same poision. Yesterday my brother tells me mom has cancer. I know that I should feel bad but for some reason all I feel is s sense of "good, I hope she die". I know it's not normal but can anyone help understand y I feel this way?

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  Am I bad

  Posted by: pchamber

  Posted: 05/15/2018

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  Hello world! I'm back and trying to determine if I'm good or bad. If maybe I'm approaching life wrong.

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  Hug

  Posted by: pchamber

  Posted: 04/21/2018

  pchamber sent a hug to SomeGuy092
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  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 04/21/2018

  pchamber commented on the discussion Am I selfish.