Reality

Today I sit here and I wonder do I enjoy being in pain emotionally as well as physically? I love with someone that I knew it was a bad idea until I must have to go back there with. I don't know why I care about him as much as I do he is always been that person that ring comes around my heart just small form and I wish that I could be with him. But I know that being with him was a bad idea because he does not feel the same way about me. So this time that I see are alone I'm glad I push myself to walk away the next time I see him I have to leave him alone I'm just go go on. Some days I wish I had a friend that I could help with two but I have no one. I'll call my mother when she can't understand how I feel she has our mentality set in a way that it was 30 years ago so don't try to explain to her how I'm feeling right now she just really can't understand. She has it in her mind that coming home and that the men home is better and everything is better back home but it's not there's a reason I left home because the world has changed. When I try to explain this to her she just really can't understand but it is time to walk away from Ty. I think I will always love him I don't feel that that it will never change but I know now I got to go on