asilvercloud
Status: Trigger warning: I'm here to discuss incest, sexual abuse, and how these things have impacted my sexuality. Some find that triggering, so consider yourself warned.
Mood:
Ok
Offline
-
Not sure which group to post this in, as it relates to many things (deceided to make it a journal). I am an incest survivor and my early childhood was very traumatic. My father was the perpetrator....
-
Well, I find myself on DS again and reading old journals. When I came here several years ago I was struggling with a lot of intense feelings. I was using sex, pot and food to cope and I was working...
-
I just wanted make a note here... I was with someone new this past weekend, and I wasn't triggered by my PTSD while I was with him. I can only achieve orgasm when I am in missionary position, but...
-
(I originally wrote this to post in a group on a fetish website, but want to share it here as a journal as well).So, I have decided to take the time to write about something that I feel is a really...
-
Well, it's been a while since I have been on this site. Last time I was here, I found what I needed and moved on. I thought I'd found a good relationship and that I was embarking on a better chapter...
-
So, I’ve been going through a lot of stuff lately. For me, any sexual exploration comes with a lot of emotion and self-realization. Since I recalled the incest last year, I’ve repressed my sexual...
-
Well, I haven’t been online very often, and so I have not updated my goals. I’ve done a big thing by leaving a relationship that wasn’t healthy for me. It has been hard, but I am starting to...
-
Just noting that I have accomplished one of my goals; being more active. Since I created my goal, I have considered it 5% progress per week if I followed my plan. I figure that once I go twenty...
-
So, I’m sort of having a difficult time today. I’m going through a break-up with my partner of eleven years, and that is difficult in and of itself. We are still living with each other for the...
-
I had a dream last night about my inner child (I don’t recall ever having a dream like this before, so it’s kind of cool). Anyway, I wanted to share it and well, this seems like a good place to...
-
So, I stopped updating my ongoing goal journal entry a month or more ago. I had been opening it up every week and adding a sentence or two to keep track of my progress. I’ve been a little busy...
-
I told a friend recently that I am feeling good about my healing generally; that I can feel changes occurring within me and he asked me to write about what those changes are. I think that I am making...
-
I had a very powerful realization yesterday evening. I was working though the “Courage to Heal Workbook,” and I was to fill out a list of positive and negative influenced in my life. It was an...
-
I wrote this as a response to a question a friend asked, but I am going to post it here too. Among other things, this trauma has impacted me greatly. When I talk to friends about abandonment...
-
Some people are asking, "what happened to me?" Though this journal does not anwser that question entirely, it hits on some major points. It doesn't begin to explain how much I was manipulated or how...
dd