Long Day
Just got back from the ER. I ended up really cutting and needed stitches. I'm really dissappointed in myself right now and just feel like crying and taking enough meds to guarantee that I sleep through the night...and then some. At least the student doc doing my stitches was a sweetie and good looking. The whole ER is completely different from last time I was there over a year ago. It's been totally renovated and it's nice but confusing.
I had appointment with podiatrist earlier. They decided to wait on treating until the area with the allergic reaction heals up more.
I went to my insurance company to try and get reimbersed for last session and it was a whole big problem because the form had the wrong persons name on it. I broke down crying though and the lady made an exception and put it through. My anxiety went off the wall after that. I had to take a clonazepam at the mall just to get the things done that I needed to do. Then I got home and totally freaked out.
I didn't end up talking to psych there...i wasn't even given the option. I didn't feel I needed to at the time anyway...but now I'm kinda wishing I asked. Guess I'll just see how tonight goes...medicate...and see what tomorrow brings. I can always call my psychiatrist and/or psychologist tomorrow.
I'm gonna go...writing is actually upsetting me more right now. Just need to take something...put in a movie...and numb my brain. I don't want to be struggling with this again.
I had appointment with podiatrist earlier. They decided to wait on treating until the area with the allergic reaction heals up more.
I went to my insurance company to try and get reimbersed for last session and it was a whole big problem because the form had the wrong persons name on it. I broke down crying though and the lady made an exception and put it through. My anxiety went off the wall after that. I had to take a clonazepam at the mall just to get the things done that I needed to do. Then I got home and totally freaked out.
I didn't end up talking to psych there...i wasn't even given the option. I didn't feel I needed to at the time anyway...but now I'm kinda wishing I asked. Guess I'll just see how tonight goes...medicate...and see what tomorrow brings. I can always call my psychiatrist and/or psychologist tomorrow.
I'm gonna go...writing is actually upsetting me more right now. Just need to take something...put in a movie...and numb my brain. I don't want to be struggling with this again.
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Nicolle, I\'m so sorry. I know how hard uve been working at not going back to the er. Its ok, it may not feel like it right now but it will be ok. Pray, I know u don\'t feel like it but it will help. I\'m praying for u. Take care, much love and hugs...
Hi Nicolle, I hope you are feeling better now. I am sorry that you did cut but am glad that you are all patched up. Don\'t spend the rest of the time beating yourself up. Life is one moment at a time. love and hugs.
Just ask for forgiveness from God, He loves you and wants the best for you. After that forgive yourself. No one is perfect, we all make mistakes, just know that God\'s grace can carry you through...feel it, use it, be at peace.
hugs N, I\'m so sorry. We all do things we wish we hadn\'t -- just move forward and keep watching movies till you feel a bit better. That helps me a lot. and maybe some chocolate? take care, m