findingtamara

Sometimes, life is shit, and there really is no point in living anymore. I was looking for a reason to live for the past two years, and all I found were more reasons to die. That´s why no therapy,...

Yesterday was the day when I finally saw my therapist again, after an one month break.I don´t want to rethink half of it. He thinks I started eating again because I still look healthy. I didn´t...

I never cut because I felt deeply miserable. It has always been the result of generally feeling "happy", when things went well and it seemed like I could lay in my bed at the end of the day without...

My therapist has repeatedly expressed his frustration about my unwillingness to accept the seriousness of my self-injurious behaviour. After eleven days without eating anything, I called him to...

Ever since my depression reached a certain level that made it impossible for me to laugh it off as general lack of happyness due to puberty and school stress, I knew that I would never have the...

Reading my journal entry from last night & I don´t know what to think about it. I can relate to it, and, at the same time, I can´t.It´s part of the general frustration surrounding my life that I...

My life is a fucking disaster and nothing will ever change that.I´ve been like this for more than 1 1/2 years & everything gets worse every freaking day.I cut myself - Stopped.I abused med -...

I´ve started with psychotherapy in June 2014. My therapist, who deals with children and teenagers, is a rather old man that I would describe as both laid back and serious, whatever of these...

Haven´t eaten in 30 days. Today was a bad day - also food wise. I didn´t eat anything, but I felt hungry and I am utterly frustrated that I can´t simply eat anything anymore, even if it´s just a...

I don´t know what to think of today. I almost missed my bus and generally felt like shit. I had so many classes and didn´t even try to pay attention to what my teachers said because I couldn´t...

I can't fall asleep, so I decided to check my schedule for tomorrow and I saw that my art class got cancelled! I'll stay at home then, staying in school for 8 hours but only having two classes isn't...

4 weeks passed since I stopped eating. I feel okay, physically wise. I have a bit of stomach pain whenever I drink a big cup of milk too fast, but other than that, my body is in a good condition. I...

I'm really not looking forward to the upcoming week. Me and my classmates are going to do this thing where we dress up differently each day for a total of five days, according to a theme like "horror...

Okay, first of all: I´ve probably started over 10 different diaries in my life and none of them lasted longer then a few weeks. So...we will see how this journey turns out. 2015 started pretty...