Guess what?

My life is a fucking disaster and nothing will ever change that.
I´ve been like this for more than 1 1/2 years & everything gets worse every freaking day.
I cut myself - Stopped.
I abused med - Stopped.
Now I refuse food. 
I hate everything that keeps me alive. Liquids, food, breathing. All bullshit.
I hope I´ll die soon. 
And if I need months to starve myself to death, that´s fine for me as long as it works.