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- I may be struggling with cognitive dissonance. I thought I loved myself and there are things abt myself that are not so bad. But then I became aware I was afraid of turning out a narcissist like my abuser. So I started counteracting my positive...
- I got tested recently and naturally I was to answer a lot of questions about my sex life. When I revealed that I was actually a virgin the doc asked why I’m even getting tested at all. So I told them “I was sexually assaulted in the...
- So some old memories have resurfaced and it’s really hard. This happened years ago and I never told anyone. Now that I’m older and I have a better understanding of myself and the world it’s caught up with me. I would say in this day and age...
- I haven’t posted here in a while becuz I’ve been a busy teen. And also becuz I’ve been hard at work with making my own happiness & I used to come here when I just couldn’t/didn’t know how to do that. But my parents celebrated their 24th...
- So, prom season is happening. Everyone my age seems to working for their prom bods finding the perfect dress, putting together promposals. There’s probably a better term for this but ‘prom fever’ seems to be real here for a teenager attempting...
- Way back when I made a post saying how I didn’t think I desevered to live up to 18. But a funny thing happened last month I turned 18.Somewhere along the line, I just sort of turned my life around. I realized that I had a bit of emotional baggage....
- This year has been hard on me. I’ve been on the receiving end of sexual harassment and stalking lately. I can’t tell my family or anyone close to them becuz some of this involves past non-straight relationships. The Kavanaugh, molkka situation,...
- So I’ve been having a lil bit of problem and I decided to try to ask for help here becuz I really don’t know where else to. And I feel a sense of community here as well so I feel comfortable talking about this here. A few years ago I met a man...
- I have recordings of my mother screaming at me on my cellphone. I do this because when I was younger she pushed me to attempt suicide. I survived but kept my attempt secret. Her words have sent me into suicidal crisis multiple times and I initially...
- So my grandparents were forcefully divorced this summer and my mother is devastated. She’s been screaming at me lately and I’ve crying about it a little too much. Her mother and father didn’t treat her the best growing up and their divorce...
- So I always come here when my depression and PTSD get kinda bad. And I’m not medicated either so I have to find other ways to cope and not kill myself in the process. But while I still can right now. I want to take some self love advice I heard...
- So I’ve wanted to talk about this for a long time because I think it’s something lots of ppl especially ppl my age go through. And I think I’ve done my healing. Or at least enough. I don’t think I’ll ever be completely healed but I’ve...
- I’ll be crying my eyes out because I did whatever and I feel like crap for it. And my mother or others will tell me that I have nothing to be depressed about that I have everything I could want. Yeah I do have a lot to live for and be happy...
- So this is gonna be long. I mean loooong. For years I’ve never once called my mother abusive. I’ve never thought of her as abusive until this year. And I first made a post here addressing how maybe she was abusive. Because at this point it’s...
- Late last night I got in my bed after a fairly decent day. Then I get an awful feeling in my chest and I started crying my eyes out. And I stayed like that for a while. Weeks ago I screwed up and got in trouble with my mother again and she was...