VolatileVacuum
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The entire month of February was shit. I got drugged on my birthday, I got dropped by my doctor, my meds don't work anymore, blah blah blah. But I did become vegan, so that's good. In other news,...
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Horrible week.-First, on Monday, my best friend of 8 years decided to end our friendship. -Second, on Tuesday, said friend told a bunch of lies to her brother and he commented on my facebook status...
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I guess I've been alright. The Paxil is helping with my anxiety and obsessive thoughts, but I feel like my depression is getting worse. But that doesn't mean it's the pills...my life has been...
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I start taking Paxil in four days. I'm nervous because it made my sister worse when she took it. I feel incredibly lonely and depressed tonight so I have no choice but to lock myself in my room and...
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I don't want to eat again. I haven't since this morning and, even though I'm not that hungry, I realized I love the feeling of starving. I feel empty, but the numbness I get from not eating seems to...
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I went back to therapy on the third. I worried about it all week, but once I got there I just automatically decided I needed to tell her everything that had happened the past two weeks and how my...
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I can't believe it's already the last day of the year. It really depresses me.This day, last year, I promised myself things would be different. And you know, they ALMOST were. But they're not...
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I started cutting again. I've only done it three times, but that's still too much. All the suicidal thoughts are back as well. I feel just as empty and worthless and tired as I did before all of...
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I think they fucked everything up when they upped my dosage. I'm fine one minute and then the next I'm locking myself in my friends bathroom and searching for things to cut with. I didn't find...
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We had to put my dog to sleep on Friday. We took him to the vet thinking he had something as simple as a tooth ache, but it turns out his entire liver was cancerous and it spread to his chest. He was...
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I went to the doctor a week ago and he moved my prescription up from 20mg to 40, and referred me to a psychiatrist (who I have an appointment with on Monday). I'm actually really terrified to talk to...
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I'm still doing really well. I haven't had any anxiety attacks or depression episodes in over a week, and I haven't cut/burned since the beginning of the month. I managed to stay the night at my...
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Everything is very good. Except I'm always exhausted because I can't stop cleaning.
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I feel a little better today. Anxiety-wise at least. I finally slept through the night without waking up once. It was VERY much needed.But I feel very worthless and meaningless, like I hold...
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I was doing so well, and I messed everything up. All that progress is gone.I'm unfixable and I'm losing my mind. I really am.
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