EmilyRoseMari46

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  Posted by: EmilyRoseMari46

  Posted: 10/03/2025

  EmilyRoseMari46 commented on the discussion Mom's first anniversary.

• Depression
  

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  Posted: 10/03/2025

  EmilyRoseMari46 commented on the discussion What to do.

• Depression
  

  What to do

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  Last Reply: EmilyRoseMari46 10/03/2025

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  With Mother's Day last weekend this weekend is my Dad's anniversary of 8 years to be gone. And on Monday I've been working work to make rent but I have a notice to pay all or get out. I've been homeless before but I can't do it again. If I become homeless again I will find my babies a home and just end it all. I can't do this anymore. I give up. And I want to go back up self harming again. I had a knife in my hand and went across my skin. But I never broke skin. I'm just done. 

• Depression
  

  Mom's first anniversary

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  Last Reply: EmilyRoseMari46 10/03/2025

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  Tomorrow is my Mom's first anniversary.  I'm having a hard time. I was at work and when I came home I found her on the floor gone. I had a feeling something was going to happen to her but not her passing.  I'm so lost and numb again.  I'm not eating sleeping again. All I do is toss and turn. I lost my Dad 6 years ago. Now I have lost both parents and I'm an orphan.  How do I get past this. All I want to do is die and forget about everything.  My babies fur babies can be so much better off...

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• Depression
  

  Orphan

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  Last Reply: MelT2020 12/09/2022

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  I lost my Dad in 2016. Now I lost my Mother in 2021. They were both of a heart attack.  I'm the only child. I might be 36 but I will always need my parents.  I was homeless for awhile but me and Mom found a place. Now since she is gone I'm actually on my very own now. We lived together.  Unfortunately with her passing I was behind on my truck payment and it got repo. I'm trying g my hardest to get it back but I can't. Now still have a job and roof over my head so far I feel like I'm letting...

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  Posted: 02/06/2020

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  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 01/20/2019

  EmilyRoseMari46 commented on the discussion Back step.

• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 01/20/2019

  EmilyRoseMari46 commented on the discussion Back step.

• Depression
  

  Back step

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  Last Reply: EmilyRoseMari46 01/20/2019

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  Hey everyone for the past year I have not been on here because I was doing great. I went to group therphy it helped a lot. My boss was great if I couldn't make it in back in time to get my truck and go to my meeting I was to be dropped off and he would come pick me up from my meeting. Honestly who's boss would that?. So I was ok during the holidays. But it's been this past few weeks I'm down again and thinking self harm and suicide thoughts. As in what if I would of jumped that day. With a few...

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  Journal Comment

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  Posted: 06/10/2018

  EmilyRoseMari46 commented on EmilyRoseMari46's journal Updatetake

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  Updatetake

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  Posted: 06/03/2018

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  Well this past month was my Dads second anniversary. I must say it was hard again and then this month is Fathers Day. Hope I can get through it again. But since my last post me and Mom found an apartment it's going. I started to take my meds and I had to get them adjusted. I was taking 20 and it made me so worse then before and now I take 10 and it's helping me. Me and Mom went for a drive in the mountains mixed emotions for sure. Made me happy but extremely sad but it's a process right? I...

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  Journal Comment

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  Posted: 06/03/2018

  EmilyRoseMari46 commented on TeamDS's journal Affirmation for April 10, 2018

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  Maybe hope

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  Last Reply: eli_mom 04/13/2018

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  its been awhile since I posted. I can say now I'm writing from home. We found a place and we are so happy. I must say I'm excited happy nervous and sad. It's a new chapter and I'm going to go on without my Dad. Since I last wrote I called my doctor and I cut my antidepressants in half and it's better. I'm not so tired, suicidal and zombie like. I haven't cut since last November and I also burnt my suicide note the other weekend with my cousin and Mom. I haven't thought about suicide as much...

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  Journal Comment

  Posted by: EmilyRoseMari46

  Posted: 04/12/2018

  EmilyRoseMari46 commented on TeamDS's journal Affirmation for April 10, 2018