Truhal

A famous writer once said 'You can't go home again'.  When I first heard that, I was young.  I took it literally.  I imagined that he meant that you literally couldn't go home again. Now, I'm old...

I hate my new life.  Less than 15 months ago, I was a woman living in a nice suburb with a 28 year old bird, a 13 year old dog, and a husband I adored.  Now, I'm sitting in the basement of my...

My previous journal entry was about the strange weather we're having in Chicago and how for a moment, I thought the rapture was about to occur.  I mentioned the sun, lightening and rain occurring at...

I'm hitting rock bottom ane still going.  My dog passed.  She was my first dog so this is all new to me.  I was there when she parted and do believe she is in heaven.  It's so hard watching my...

My mother took ten years to transition.  When she died I couldn't believe it.  This in spite of the fact that she'd been in hospice and the doctor had told me she didn't have long. Today, I was...

Thanks everyone for talking me through another crisis.  Reminding me to take care of myself is something I needed to hear.  I've since left my father to decide on his own health care.  I've talked...

I'm still struggling.  Father called and screamed at me again.  He hadn't taken his pill, a pill that prevents infection after surgery.  I'm livid, scared, alone.  It's finally come to me chosing...

I find that when I really care about something, I have a hard time letting go.  That goes to anything from television programs to people.  I never realized that about myself before.  I tend to...

On the day my husband passed, I sat by his bedside in awe of him.  I knew that  he was seeing the face of God.  How I wanted to be in his place.When did it start, this longing for death?  This...

It's been over a week and I still feel good.  I was surprised at first and wondered what was the turning point in my life?  What was the defining moment when the good days became dominate, and the...

I read once that widows/widowers are not capable of remembering the bad times in their marriages after losing a spouse.  I can't say that's true.  You see, in my case, I remember the kind, loving...

I changed my emotion to excellent today.  It started yesterday.  My DH has been gone since March 31, 2010.  Right after he passed, I knew a few things: 1) I'd have to rely on God completly to get...

Couples.  They're everywhere.  We see them out walking their dog.  We see them in shopping malls, in churches, in stores.  Sometimes is overwhelming and we find ourselves envious.  My first day...

I get up in the morning.  Feed the dog.  Feed the bird.  Go to work.  I force myself to do things: have dinner with friends.  See a movie.  I am not happy. I'm walking through life like I'm in...

I guess I'm in a writing mood today.  I've been thinking about a story I'm working on and here I am writing another journal entry.  This one is on walking alone and is sure to perk up the ears of a...