Truhal

I joined Weight Watchers, so that means I'm using Nutrisystem for food and WW for support.  It's working.

I'm feeling better today.  I've decided to move in with my father, but to do away with anything legal that would make me co-owner of the house.  That way I can move out at a moments notice.  If I...

I met a lady today, mid-sixties, very nice.  She's been widowed for four years.  We both shared our thoughts on being widowed for a few minutes.  we were talking about how it's the woman who's...

I've decided to let go of the anger I feel towards my husband for leaving so soon.  You see, I had warned him about his diet and especially about not getting enough sleep.  I specifically told him...

I made a cup of tea today and it triggered all sorts of memories of the final days of my husband.  I was making a cup of tea when the telephone rung.  It was my husband saying that he was sick to...

The last day of my mother's life, we had a conversation about health.  She told me not to end up like her, to follow my father's example.  Mom was overweight, ate what she wanted, never exercised,...

Went to a movie with friends.  The same theater DH and I enjoyed not that long ago.  It was hard.  A few times I almost cried, but I made it through.  It helped that it was that movie Date...

It's late and I'm looking at my dog.  My 15 year old dog who spent her entire life eating fruit and vegetables and high-quality dog food.  Now, with her advancing years, she's still walking well,...

During the day the rational me shows up.  She's savy, competent, smart, logical.  Late at night a differnt woman appears: She's needy, scared, and feels abandoned.  Since I'm a religious woman,...

Able to sit in house without a television or some other noise maker on.  Did this for four hours.  A whole day when I did not call my father.  Back to writing fanfiction and posting to my...

Thanks everyone who read and commented on my story.  It really helped to write it as I'm having some of those feelings myself.  It's like one moment you're fine and the next you're not.  Just...

Step 3 for me is getting back to writing.  It's a hobby for me.  Here's a little something I wrote just to vent.  The characters are fictional, the sentiment is real. Embracing InsanityBy...

Had lunch with friends today.  It wasn't as hard as I thought.  I'll keep doing things like that.  Somehow I have to find the way to breath again.

I made it through the funeral.  It achieved what I wanted it to: my stepdaughter recieved closure and comfort.  Not many relatives came, but those that did remininced and were sorry that they...

Today is the funeral.  After much thought, I've decided to spend only one hour there for the wake and the service follows.  He's being cremated so there is no need to go to the gravesite.  Thank...