Tuesday, February 26, 2008

i cut myself today. i was just so fuckin pissed and i didnt know how to control myself. its like She came out.... ive never really talked about it before but i think i have another side to me. Her name would be Maridia. she has black eyes and blood red tears that sweep over my whole perseption on life and why i exsist. i dont wanna kill myself, id much rather hurt someone else but when theres no one else what choices do i have to give myself? but i was really thinkin about going to Two Rivers which is just another funny farm but i got high and now i wish i wouldnt have cut myself but i cant really do anything about it now other than smoke some more weed. so im gonna go get happy. god i hate moodswings.