JStar7227
Status: Fighting the internal battle with my demons
Mood:
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- Why? Idk why I’m the way I am anymore. I do my best to help others feel good about themselves, help the laugh, smile, be there listening ear. Everyone always says I’m a great person for being so kind. But deep down I hate myself. I hate my face,...
- Im tired of putting my emotions out for others just to be rejected or have them messed up. Maybe I’m just being paranoid I met this girl and we get along good we agreed if we wanna be together we have to start slow and build to a relationship. But...
- I feel like I’m hopeless I’m this world, like I have nothing else worth fighting for. I’m so hurt inside I feel heavy hearted everyday. Everyday I wish I was dead. I feel like I have a 1,000 pound weight on my back and everyday it’s crushes...
- Im dead inside. That’s all I can say, there’s no other way to describe it. Nobody cares enough to listen. People only care about you when you have a smile on your face and your happy, but once you’re sad and you struggle they disappear. But...
- I’m only fooling myself into thinking anyone could care about me I’m constantly ignored and hurt. I can’t trust anyone now I feel alone like I’m the only person alive. Idk if I can hold it in anymore I’m losing my control. My world is gone...
- Idk where I begin to fix myself anymore I’ve had so much pain so much heartache my mind and heart can’t keep going on. I find myself fighting to not hurt myself everyday it’s just a daily struggle and a daily fight for me and I can’t fight...
- Ive never felt so low and so helpless. I feel as if there’s nothing right I can do no matter how hard I try I just keep getting disappointed. I feel completely alone and worthless, there are days where I have to fight to get out of bed. I feel...
- The blood drips and runs down my arms it warms my broken damaged soul. Like a perfect blanket in the night. I don’t want it to stop in fact I want to it to bleed more.
- Im trying to be more positive in my outlook on things I really am trying but it’s been very difficult to remain positive when there’s so much negative around you. Idk maybe it’s just me. Happy new year to me
- 2017 was not my best year by a long shot but personally I’m ready for 2018 and growing and developing myself into a new person. I hope everyone has a great and safe New Years and I wish everyone the best of luck in 2018
- Well in all honesty this hasn’t been my greatest year or my greatest Christmas in fact it’s my worst. I’ve spent most of it in emotional pain and alone. I hope everyone has had an amazing Christmas I hope everyone got what they wished for!...
- What more can I take? I don’t know anymore. The past few days for me have been so draining idk what else to do other than harm myself and drink until I can’t feel anything. I can’t sleep I can’t eat I think too much. I always ask others how...
- Usually around this time of year is when I’m at my happiest, Christmas is my favorite holiday of the year. Being around my family and friends and loved ones just enjoying life. But now it feels like a painful time of year for me. I feel like I...
- Why do I even try anymore? I just keep being nice to people and I just get it thrown back at me. What did I do to deserve this? Maybe I’m just better off dying the world doesn’t need a loser like me
- Have you ever had days were you just can’t seem to smile no matter how hard you try? I’ve had those days more than I’d like to admit recently. I just can’t catch a break I feel so isolated and alone. I go through my days feeling down and...