If you die and they come flying back you wont know though. Shutting down your emotions by not caring is easy, but feeling..... feelings again that's harder. I am so sorry for the pain that pushed you into this position. I know how hard it is to feel like you have no one, no one can help carry the weight of this, I get it. But you are VAULABLE and you do matter. It breaks me to know that the people that are suppose to be there for you are not. Your welcome to message me if you'd like. But just remember, you are stronger and much more alive than the things that are dead inside. i know it is hard to see but you are loved and cared about.

If you ever need to vent this is the perfect place to do so without being judged. This group is very supportive and would listen to your problems. I will agree that people tend to care more when they know less about your real problems that you are facing, which is sad. I am not sure exactly what you are experiencing right now, but I hope things get better for you. There are times when the world comes full force at us leaving us hopeless, but we must remain strong and never give up. Your life is precious and it does matter if you live or die. Hang in there buddy things will get better in time.

Don't even go there. Search for spiritual meaning. We are here on earth school to evolve spiritually. If we leave this school prematurely we will have to start all over again. Read Elkhart Tolle books. Take care now.

Hey JStar, we're listening aren't we? If people only listened to you when you are happy as a lark, then how dang boring it would be?. At least we here need to hear your story because, believe it or not, you a inspiring others to examine their own lives and miseries. So thank you for sharing with us and know that someone here is always ready to listen.

Bless you and take care.

Yes, we are listening.
We are here for you.
I am flying to you right now!
Blessings

Hey, JStar. I feel you, man. Things have felt to so pointless and meaningless and empty lately. And then yesterday... things weren't as bad. The sun came out. I went to bed so many nights waiting to wake up to things not as bad, and I had started to give up on thinking they could ever feel okay again. That maybe I'd realized how empty life is and that's all there was... and though things certainly aren't perfect now, I can see how to look past some of what I'm feeling. I can smile at my dog again. It's hard when people don't understand. My neighbor told me to cheer up just this afternoon. I wanted to tell him to fuck off because that's not how depression works, but I mostly just ignored him and kept doing what I wanted to do (which was nice to want to do something).

I joined a gym recently. I don't know if that's part of what's getting me out of this funk, but exercise never hurts the situation.

I’m sorry to hear you are challenged at the moment. I am most certain that dying is not the answer. There have been two suicides in my family and let me tell you, it solves nothing! You are a special individual and that is why you are here. We all bring something wonderful to this world. Sometimes we just have to dig a little deeper than others to find it, but I assure you, it is there. I volunteer often and this has lifted me tremendously. There is nothing more rewarding than helping another human being. And you are absolutely correct, we cannot always be happy. We all have days of sadness but we don’t have to stay that way and we certainly cannot depend on another person to bring us out of our funk. We have to look within ourselves and see just what it is that give us joy. My joy is in serving others. If you feel completely overwhelmed, reach out for some help. Life counselors are terrific. They are trained and they can help you find some direction. I’m sorry that you feel that others let you down! I do hope for resolution and peace of mind!