Hi Jstar,
Being in a relationship/ or starting one takes patience, commitment & trust from both parties. I can understand what you are going through, you are not a lone. There a lot of people out there who feel the same way you do. Trying to keep things together inside your head and heart is super exhausting. Days where you just want to give up on life. Life itself is not easy, we choose how we want to "live". People don't always appreciate others around them. If you are in a relationship, communication is key. I personally, in a new relationship try to communicate my emotions & feelings but not too much that I overwhelm my partner. You are also going slow, so trust needs to be built in order for you not to feel like "she doesn't like you". It takes patience and relationships take time to built. I encourage you talk to her and to make sure she is in the same page as you. If you both want to be in this relationship for long term. Make sure that both of you want to be together before moving forward so that you don't waste your time & emotional well being with someone who isn't going to be invested in you.
All the best (=^･ｪ･^=))ﾉ彡☆

Get busy man. Go to the gym. Go for a walk. he aint going to make you happy-only you can do that. Get so busy you have no Time to think.

If he senses you are overtly needy-women tend to walk away.
They want somebody with a full life that they can add to not complete.

I feel your pain as I'm in the same boat just different circumstances....as the tortoise on kungfu panda said yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift which is why it's called the present. Dont stress on what was or will be just be in the now and hopefully your still here. Yes these things are easier said than done and I'm biast when it comes to my own advice (plus I suck at giving it lol) I try to tell myself that everything happens for a reason even the bad so it's out of our control so there's no use feeling on it just do you and if she really wants you let her come to you when she is ready (that whole saying if you love something set it free......)

I would not advise anyone to put the source of their happiness on the shoulders of someone else. They may just drop it. She is maintaining her own happiness and expects you to do the same. Your happiness is not her job.

This goes for everyone. Happiness comes from the inside .. not the outside.

Google "finding happiness' and learn how it works.

You have a purpose to be here. I too suffer from depression & have my bad days. But by all means do not harm yourself!!! People such as myself that have big hearts seem to get the short end of the stick but hang in there it's all in God's timing if you need to let go of what's causing you pain then by all means let the person gooooo!!! Turn to god & he will guide you. Keep Faith & don't give up!!

Hello,
I am sorry that you are going through such a difficult situation right now. I would like to offer a couple of thoughts on your post, but I must clearly state that I do not in any way seek to offend you as it seems like you are already dealing with a lot. So please, take it for what it is worth.
It seems from your post that it might be better for you to focus on yourself for a while before seeking to enter into a relationship. The reason that I think this is that you have mentioned the following:
• “Maybe I’m just being paranoid…”
• “…maybe I’m just overthinking it…”
• “…I feel like”
I don’t know if you are interested or not, but one of the things that can really help you is accepting and getting to know Jesus Christ. The bible says that Jesus is, “the way, the truth, and the life, no one comes to the father but through Him. I was just like you before committing my life to Christ and everything is turned around. I am full of love, joy, and peace. I am praying for you that you will pray to accept Christ and that things will get better for you. God bless you,
Kevin