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• Victims of Psychopaths
  

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  Posted: 06/07/2017

  excruciatingPain commented on the discussion No Contact Fail.

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  No Contact Fail

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  Last Reply: excruciatingPain 06/07/2017

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  Well, I was at day 35 of no contact and I heard from him via text.  I responded because he told me in the text that he was in a bad accident and totaled his truck.  And ofcourse, it was all my fault.  Then the next day, his Cousin (whom I love Dearly) was having a Birthday celebration and the family invited me to come.  That was a HUDGE mistake.  However I did get through it without embarassing myself.  Today I contacted his family and told them that I will no longer be in contact with...

• Breakups & Divorce
  

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  Posted: 06/06/2017

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• Victims of Psychopaths
  

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  Posted: 06/01/2017

  excruciatingPain commented on the discussion Day 32 No Contact.

• Victims of Psychopaths
  

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  Posted: 05/31/2017

  excruciatingPain commented on the discussion Day 32 No Contact.

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  Day 32 No Contact

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  Last Reply: excruciatingPain 06/01/2017

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  Today, I woke up angry! Angry that he took away some financial stability, took away the protection that I thought  had, took away the provision I thought I had, took away my head laying on his chest as he held me while we slept.  Angry that he took away the Steph-Dad my son's thought they had... Angry that I am again, all alone in this World! I have no earthly family here in the Town that I live, it's just me and my Son's.  He gave me a family, he has 4 older Children and his family is huge!...

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  Continuation

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  Posted: 05/31/2017

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  crack, he was very abusive, he would beat me just cause, even when I was pregnant.  I stayed because I desperately wanted a family of my own.  I was willing to do ANYTHING and take ANYTHING to have one.  That situation got so bad that I considered taking my own life. I was the lowest that I had ever been.  He had left to take our Son's to Daycare, I got the gun from off the closet shelf and put it to my head... Crying hysterically, I heard a Voice say TRUST ME! I put the gun down and fell...

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  Day 32

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  Posted: 05/31/2017

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  Today, I woke up angry! Angry that he took away some financial stability, took away the protection that I thought  had, took away the provision I thought I had, took away my head laying on his chest as he held me while we slept.  Angry that he took away the Steph-Dad my son's thought they had... Angry that I am again, all alone in this World! I have no earthly family here in the Town that I live, it's just me and my Son's.  He gave me a family, he has 4 older Children and his family is huge!...

• Victims of Psychopaths
  

  Thought this may help someone.

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  Posted: 05/31/2017

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  There was an instant connection. You laughed with so many, but with this one, it was different. Talking 5 minutes with him made you feel more alive than anything - and no label of what you officially were or weren’t could ever change that.And he felt it, too. The way he looked at you, how tenderly he listened, the way he just got you.But not too long into your magic, things started to turn. He started appreciating you less and less in a million different ways. He stopped appreciating your...

• Breakups & Divorce
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 05/31/2017

  excruciatingPain commented on the discussion Why Are You Afraid Of Losing Him When He's Not Afr.