Ambrosia6

First day in the trauma recovery program went well.  The people are good.  It's not as controlling an environment as I feared it would be.  And they're flexible about my fatigue issues.  Lunch...

I'm going to start this trauma recovery program tomorrow.  It's not 9'4 like I thought I'd been told, but 9-3.  I explained my fatigue issues and they said if by 2 I just couldn't stay up, I could...

Going to another facility tomorrow to get an assessment.  They have a really good trauma recovery program.  Found a friend to go with me.  I had been waiting to hear from the director but she...

Just weighed myself.  Gained back the 2 lbs I lost last week.  Must have been last night's Ben and Jerry's.

Got this in an e-mail and had to share. Just a friendly reminder!!!!!   C o L O R     IS GOOD   Yesterday I went to the doctor for my yearly physical. My blood pressure was high ....  ...

Woke up at 4:30am gave up trying to fall back asleep at 6:30 and starting painting.  Chatted on DS with a few ppl while painting and got a call from a friend in Massachusetts I haven't talked to in...

I wasn't thinking of this when I put the snail as my avatar, but it is appropriate.  I'm slowly moving forward here - like a snail. Went to the arboretum for lunch with some ladies today - was...

I don't even know what to say.  I know why I'm feeling the way I am.  I'm frustrated, annoyed, anxious, helpless, afraid, not hopeless yet but afraid that I will be if certain things don't turn...

IOP this morning, 2 hour nap, therapy session this afternoon, 2 hour phone conversation....wiped out - first fatigue & falling then panic attack.  Can't let myself get that tired!! Thank God for...

didnt sleep much from 2:30 on. its been a few weeks since i had a poor nights sleep. As I lay here a dawn was breaking, I started thinking of the song "Morning Has Broken"Morning has bro (bang...

I made it through Day 2.  I talked some, started to share my story. I saw the nurse, and told her about the DM (dermatomyositis) and that I fall on average 3 times a week.  So she put me on the...

Had my first day of IOP.  3 hours of group therapy.  The group leader was nice and didn't make me talk.   I'm sure she'll pry me open tomorrow though.  I know what i need is help acknowledging,...

Okay, I really did go today - as opposed to copping out like on Friday.  :p I was terrified of inpatient, and after the assessment the lady said I wouldn't qualify for inpatient anyway. ...

Gettin ready to go get assessed at the Christian mental facility.  Just need to log my exercise minutes on here and my weight.  I really don't want to do inpatient, but feel this obligation to be...

After getting away from the computer last night around midnight, I fell in the kitchen - twice.  Got myself to the couch.  Had a panic attack and flashbacks. I know I need help.  But I don't know...