seanmarsh33

Well this is cool.  For the first time I feel alive again.  Thanks to My family, you guys on DS, and some friends.  I am unsure of what is next, but somehow that does not scare me.  My family...

  Hey I'm back.  Well the last time I shared was about accepting the Lord.  Now let me share that there are many things that hold us back from embracing the Lord,  because he is there waiting...

Well if you noticed I changed my mood to excellent.  Have not felt this way in a long time.  Thanks to some on this site, my loving courageous wife, my girls, and the Lord I now am stronger and the...

I just read my wife's journal, and it breaks my heart!! She is marshjody84.  I wanted to go back to work a little while ago, but we wanted me to to through treatment and get stronger first.  I am...

     Well here it goes.  First of all two things:  If you are not a christian, or seeking do not read on. I wish to offend no one.  However if you are inquisitive, tired, hurt, Lonely, and are...

Man I really miss it.  I never knew how much I miss preaching, teaching, ministering, and writing poetry.  Lately I have come to realize that was my major outlet.  Now it just is so hard, because...

   I do not know what is worse having ptsd or trying to beat it.  I used to think that I was broken and just wanted to be fixed.  But before just existing felt a lot better than trying to go...

Man just found out today that in about a month my family will have to be living out of hotels again.  I wish I could work or go to school to help my wife financially support us.  But the VA doc...

Ok well I know I have ptsd and I know what started it, but I think a lot contributed to the onset of ptsd.  I will not bore myself or others with all of it but here is the highlights.  If I must...

White noise and chickens all I hearAll I feel is fearAll I know and feelAll I am never was realWhat else can I doWhen I look in the mirror, I don't know you PTSDHas always been meBlood comes out...

Hey guys,   Well my question is what outlets do you guys have for all the pain, suffering, confusion, anger, etc.?  I used to write poetry years ago, but I was suspended from High School because...

Well Christmas was great.  I went to park so my girls could ride their new scooters.  Unfortunately I over did it.  Woke up Sat in a major fog.  Like I was majorly hung over, but did not drink. ...

Man this sucks.  I am overflowing with too many emotions.  Just when I thought I was back on track I am reminded that I am derailed.  I was never in control, so I plan everything, but surprize I...

   Well today is interesting.  Something that only happens in a blue moon.  I am feeling almost normal if anyone can be so called normal.  Today at least you would not even guess I have ptsd. ...

O.k. Here it goes.  I want and know things have to change, but how?  I am a Christian, and I am tired of other people (christian and non-christian a like) telling me how to be and how I am, when...