seanmarsh33

   I do not know what is worse having ptsd or trying to beat it.  I used to think that I was broken and just wanted to be fixed.  But before just existing felt a lot better than trying to go...

Man just found out today that in about a month my family will have to be living out of hotels again.  I wish I could work or go to school to help my wife financially support us.  But the VA doc...

Ok well I know I have ptsd and I know what started it, but I think a lot contributed to the onset of ptsd.  I will not bore myself or others with all of it but here is the highlights.  If I must...

White noise and chickens all I hearAll I feel is fearAll I know and feelAll I am never was realWhat else can I doWhen I look in the mirror, I don't know you PTSDHas always been meBlood comes out...

Hey guys,   Well my question is what outlets do you guys have for all the pain, suffering, confusion, anger, etc.?  I used to write poetry years ago, but I was suspended from High School because...

Well Christmas was great.  I went to park so my girls could ride their new scooters.  Unfortunately I over did it.  Woke up Sat in a major fog.  Like I was majorly hung over, but did not drink. ...

Man this sucks.  I am overflowing with too many emotions.  Just when I thought I was back on track I am reminded that I am derailed.  I was never in control, so I plan everything, but surprize I...

   Well today is interesting.  Something that only happens in a blue moon.  I am feeling almost normal if anyone can be so called normal.  Today at least you would not even guess I have ptsd. ...

O.k. Here it goes.  I want and know things have to change, but how?  I am a Christian, and I am tired of other people (christian and non-christian a like) telling me how to be and how I am, when...

Swirling in swirling outtrying to stay afloatin this see of doubttrying to clutch what I knowwhich doe not seem muchwhen you keep falling out of touchopinions from othersdrag me underswirling in and...

Rose petals fall from the skySoaking up the tears I cryThe fragrance playing on my soulDancing around the jagged little holeThat is my sorrowAnd will grow and growBefore Today is called...

A Glimpse of what I used to besickens meno passion,no heart, no desirea dying fireI am nothing without you LordI shed the pastwhen I let you embrace mebut recently reminded of my old skintried to be...

Sometimes I feel like no time to recoverI will stay in this pit foreverLord you have shown me the wayand each die I prayI cancrawl that path again. Sean

Different DayTears that sting with each dropHearts full of pain drive me insaneThey look at meAnd feel despairNone of this is fairFearSo many reasons not to step outsideImaginary dragons opening...

Want to express the fire burning destroying insidetongue tiedbrain is friedfeel like a strangerin a even stranger Landmy wife embraces mecarressing my handwish her to see the demon that devours...