Alive

Well this is cool.  For the first time I feel alive again.  Thanks to My family, you guys on DS, and some friends.  I am unsure of what is next, but somehow that does not scare me.  My family will be living out of a hotel again soon, and I had to resign from my job at the Church.  However my treatment is starting slowly but surely, and I feel people are starting to understand me.  More importantly I am starting to understand me.  I am really starting to look inside and deal with things.  More importantly I am looking to the Lord and not man to guide my steps.  Also thanks to DS I do not feel alone are crazy anymore.