Hi David, i guess we know who is boss in your house. Keep feeling better. Bib Big Hug

I haven't replied on here since it first started but here goes. I'm having a very hard time lately with life stresses and severe pain and depression.............and so on. I don't have much support at home or anywhere but here. My 17 yr old son is so scared I might die or something that he has been very abusive to me and my partner tries but is just sick of hearing it. I am alone and isolated and VERY depressed, don't know how to get out of the hole!
I hope you are all having a much better time of it!!
Hugs
schlene

Hey Schlene,

I think you did exactly what you needed to do by posting and sharing a bit about how you're feeling. This is a daily thread that has been going. If you have to force yourself to check-in every day. Let others in and this may help you.

Of course I'm not a doctor, but I know isolating to me is very dangerous. Please come back!!!

Hugs,
David.

Thanks David, I will come back. You guys are all great and it helps.
Love Schlene

Hi Schlene and welcome. First I would like to say I'm so sorry that you are going through so much at one time. I know it's so hard to handle and cope with. Depression is something that you do isolate your self for everything and everyone. It a very sad illness. Are you being treated medically with meds and therapy? If not I would highly recommend it. It is the only way out of it most of the time. It's so hard for people we love to watch us go through and of these issues . They don't understand it because they haven't been through it. Therefore they might get frustrated with us. Your son on the other hand has no right to treat you or anyone like this , no matter if he's flustrated, doesn't understand what's going on or he thinks you are going to die. You must sit him down and if you don't think he will listen the write him a positive letter. Explaining what's going on with you , what you issues are , how the doctors are treating them, how you are trying to deal with them and your frustration from them and even your fears. Explain to him depression. That it is something that some can control on getting or treating it. It must be treated medically and it does take time. Offer to set up a family meet or if he'd prefer a family meeting with a therapist or just for him self so he can have help understanding what's going on with mom and how help learning to except it and deal with it. Don't tell him he needs help or that he needs anger management classes. S's you said he is a teenager and he wouldn't go for that. Also I would tell him if he takes you up on the offer that you wouldn't talk about it with family or friends . What goes on stays inside your home. I will be praying that sly of you find some comfort and relief, and that you will get some relief from your pain and depression. Hugs and prayers to you and your family .

Good Morning,
I am home, doing OK, a little bored, but I know I need to take it easy and let all this SCS stuff scar in.

You know it's a little discouraging when you try to move something and you get a sharp pain because you twisted or turned the wrong way. That starts a chain reaction of pain, which could include a little bit of attitude. Well that happened to me this morning moving Rocco's crate. I'm getting over it, but I guess discouraging is the best word.....cleanest thought anyway.

I hope everybody has a good day. Let's try to keep this going. We have some great people here, so if you're out there just looking, today could be the day!!

Hugs,
David.

Hi all,

Going to the doctors this morning and hope it is quick one today.
I am going to the water park after with my niece and hope to have some fun.
Then to come home and redoing a desk I got at the thrift shop and by the time i went and bought all the stuff I could of bought a brand new one. LOL
I guess it will personalized for her with love. I got these glass knobs that are so pretty and cant wait till it is done for her to play on and get ready for school. SCHOOL I cant wait till those days come along again.

(((((schlene)))) Thanks for stepping out and talking.

Feeling real angry of late. Trying to sort out the why of it and what to do about it. Today I'm angry because It's my sisters birthday in two days and past issues are bubbling up. Is it the issues, or something else and I'm using that as a way to refocus my attention?

90 days to the Neuro.

Was lying awake last night and wondering how I could end the sharp pain. If this Neuro is another dud, I don't know what I will do.

I do know one reason why I'm angry at my sibling. I have two brother and a sister, but I have the ailments. Last month I discovered I now have Graves disease. On top of this pain, I'm also losing even more weight, my emotions are running high and I'm going to lose a lot of hair which I don't have. I already look tired and old as it is and now it's going to get worse.

I'm getting sicker before I get better and I've had a lifetime of migraines that are getting worse and it isn't fair. I'm feeling really ripped off. I'm afraid of what is to come with the Graves, and what isn't to come with the Neuro and my past experience with doctors.

I feel so defeated and I haven't addressed the real Graves treatment.

Hi Everyone,

Yesterday I saw my neurologist and got the results from the first round of tests she began. She told me that my Thyroid and Pitoitory gland are not functioning properly. She wants to redo the tests to confirm the dx before we go forward. Today I have an MRI to check the growth rate of my brain tumor. As I have told you all before I absolutely love this doctor. She is so kind and thoughful. I feel as though I am in extemely competent hands.

I would like to say simply that I do not enjoy chaos and drama. I have been accused of something that is absurd and I won't support the hysteria by defending myself.

I hope that this finds you all doing something you enjoy doing. My Grand Daughter just started kindergarten so today I am going to box up a Welcome to Kindergarden gift set for her and send it off. That will make me happy. Plus, our berrys are ripe so I am going to make up a cobbler.

Hugs, Cathy

I m having a rough day with pain and working too hard for even a good day. Who can predict what each day will bring...not me? When I booked my clients, I was planning to be ok. Well, that didn't work so well. I will get through it. I'm half way there.

Seeing a post from one of my dearest friends has made my day. You deserve warm, loving hugs for trying to be helpful, but some people don't want understanding...just drama. It's unfortunate.

Love to all,
Cherry

I think this drama is ridiculous! I don't know what is true but it is unsettling.
Am I crazy or would any of you feel this way? I had a friend through my partner of 15yrs. I considered her my friend too and we got along good. When I first got with my partner, Lisa, this was her best friend and she was not nice to me at all. I took her friend away or whatever! I let it go and gave it time and was always nice to her. The friend was with a nasty old man for many years because he was worth 30 million or so. He died suddenly and she got all his money and went off the deep end. She decided she could no longer be friends with my partner as long as she was with me! She has always thought I was lazy and my pain was not real and I'm a looser! She said all this! When her guy died we were there for her every minute and did alot for her. She started accusing me of steeling from her and tried to set up traps for me to take his pain meds after he died because she knew I was always in pain and had no doc then. She would pass them out to other friends who had an ailment in front of me and not offer me any, like I was a bad child or something! My partner and I finally stopped talking to her and it has been a couple years now. Well, the other day she fell in the lake and somehow broke both of her knees and had to have surgery on them. Now everyone is all upset and feeling so bad for her going through all this and I want to puke! My first thought was what goes around comes around! Is that too hateful? She crushed me before when I was a true friend and she turned on me! All I want to say to people who are feeling so sorry for her is "at least she will heal and be done with it, I'll have this forever!" I was not the only one who she dumped when she went nuts with her money but it seems I'm the only one who feels this way. If my partner goes to see her at home I won't go, I don't think I could show sympathy to her when she had none for me when I was so.......sick back then and had no answers yet. I just don't feel good about this and wanted to vent, thanks for listening!
Hugs
schlene

Oh and Enigma thanks for the support! I know what you mean about being angry! I am too! No one around here gets it or cares much. My perfect brother just got told he is borderline diabetic and it's all anyone can talk about. We never talk about my pain issues, ever! I have been told my sugar is too high also , just a few days ago, and I have to go off sugar and get retested. I have been told this many times before. No one seems worried about me having diabetes though. I know I'm being an angry bitch but I need support too damn it!! I'm so tired of begging for it and still not getting it! The more I ask the more defensiveness I get. I'm so sick of it all! Hows that for anger! Hope you feel better!
Hugs
schlene

schelene,

I am so sorry that you went thru this. I experienced something similar when my mom died. My bi polar cousin is a nurse and" took over" her care.

I am nearly 1000 miles away. So I had to fly to see mom. But cousin decided "visiting hours" (TO MOM'sHOUSE) were suddenly 10-2. She bad mouth me so bad claiming that I just did not want to visit that mom re-wrote the will without me in it. That after 4 years of dropping everything to run to mom's side and spend months on end away from home to drive her 600 miles to chemo every week.

it hurts a lot! You did the right thing by putting her out of your life. Money is not worth prostituting yourself for someone who will treat you like that. I don't know what goes thru people's heads sometimes.

Hope you feel better soon. PM me if you want to talk more.

i need a hug and prayers. my PM had to cancel b/c of loss of power at the office. that will leave me 2 days short on the patch. i emailed yesterday asking for an rx to get me through the move (since the pharm always shorts me on what he writes) and got the druggie reply. i made arrangements to go today and got a call early today that i have to wait til next week. it's coming down like crazy here, so i'm glad to have internet. i'm so scared and tired. there's a leak right over my bed b/c they never repaired the roof. i booked a flight. i jsut want to get out of here, so please pray for this to end before next wed and for me to be able to handle the landlords asking for money for next month on the 25th. love to all.