Ugh, yesterday not good, I think I pulled out something like 129 hairs yesterday. Ahhhhhhh! Such a slippery slope. : (

Whatever.

I think I can be pull free for at least the next two days...... it's the weekend, but I still have to work.

Setbacks like that suck, but just think of the progress you have made over the past few weeks....going from pulling that much every day to only sporadically is still amazing! Just get right back to being PF as best you can tomorrow. You are still doing awesomely well.

I still think I have made progress and I still think the most important thing is I really WANT to stop pulling now. It is not going to be a battle won overnight.

Pulled like 15 today I think. I had this moment of high stress (looking at my bank account, to be specific, ha ha ha) when I "allowed" myself to start pulling hairs. So it was very deliberate, not mindless pulling.

I think I can be pull free tomorrow. It's gonna be a stressful week, but I have anti-anxiety medication now, so, I dunno, maybe it will help me.

You have a great attitude! It is so important to be realistic. It doesn't happen overnight, but you are making consistent progress and you will start to see regrowth! Phoebe recently reminded me that regrowth is the real goal, and the different ways of counting days are just tools to help us reach that goal...that has really stuck with me.

Deliberate pulling is better than subconscious pulling in a way, if that makes sense....even though you gave in to the urge, you were aware enough to know you were doing it....awareness is hard to achieve. Next step is finding ways to beat those urges!!

hahahhaha i love your attitude!
i found that my anti-anxiety medication really just made me exhausted more than actually helping me stop pulling - what do you think of yours?

you can do this! one day at a time! :) every day forward is a learning experience!

Well I took my first Klonopin yesterday and it just made me feel dead behind the eyes.

I took one tonight and weirdly enough it made me feel SUPER FOCUSED. On surfing the Internet, as opposed to, you know, doing actual work. But it did make me think oh wow, maybe this actually is something that will help me concentrate better.

So I pulled out a fair amount of hair today. At the very least like 128 . But that's not the bad news. The real bad news is after 128, I stopped counting. I think I must have pulled at least 10 more, but I didn't count them. That's not cool. That really does discourage me. Like, if I have to pull, I at the very least want to maintain awareness of what I'm doing to myself.

Blah, starting to feel down on myself again. At least I have therapy Thursday.

Its just a minor slip-up- try not to put yourself down for it, just pick up from where you are and start over, when you are feeling down this is the time to do some aerobic exercise this helps blow off steam and helps support your moods. Have you tried putting a mirror in front of where you sit when you feel the need to pull, this is what I do and its very effective in your awareness when you see yourself in the reflection playing with your hair . In-your-face-awareness is very effective!
Be kind to yourself....Hugs.

hmm I haven't tried with the mirror. I thnk the "be kind to yourself" advice is

pulled another buttload of hair today. I would tell you exactly how many, except the stupid app I keep using to count hairs keeps breaking down, so it won't show me the total count of the day yet... if anyone ever thinks of using ipro habit tracker, please, stay the fuck away, it is SUCH junk and doesn't work. I'm going to stick with the Knitting app that phoebe recommended me in order to keep counting hairs. Anyway, it was at least 55. Definitely more than 55.

Ugh. Discouraged and disappointed and sad with myself.

Long term PF streaks usually don't happen overnight. You have been doing great lately...learn from how successful you were and do your best to get right back at it. Slip ups are normal and happen to everyone. I wish I had more encouraging words...but you can do this.

awwww, thanks manda!

Pull free today! PHEEW.

Awesome!!!

Almost puff free today then starting around 11 pm I must have pulled out at least around 20 hairs! (Didn't count them either, was too lazy to get up and get phone). Baaaad!

I was looking at the data being tracked by my cell phone app:

22 days since I started making an effort with my hair again. 55 percent of those days have been pull free. I've pulled a total of 597 hairs during that time. Fuck! That sounds like a lot! THAT IS LIKE ALMOST HALF OF A THOUSAND. HALF A THOUSAND HAIRS, IN 22 DAYS!!

And that's when I'm TRYING to not pull!!!!!

Anyway, enough nerding out over data.

Tomorrow would typically be a STRESSFUL DAY but guess what I have a Klonopin prescription now and boy oh boy has that medication been helping me. A LOT. I have never taken medication for anxiety before and I really do have to say that so far, it's been helping me A TON.

But, if you'd continued pulling 150 hairs a day in those 22 days, then you'd have pulled out 3,300 hairs! So you've saved 2703 HAIRS!!!!!!!! That's AWESOME!

Wow, great that the meds are helping you. I hope they continue to help.

I'm sorry I haven't been around to support you lately. I'm really happy to see you've been consistently posting even when you slip up, which is GREAT. You're doing very well.

Oh that mirror thing that Nabby suggested is a great idea. I've thought of doing that before because whenever I see my hair, I never want to pull it. I'd never want to make it worse! I must get a little mirror!

I agree...your data also shows how much hair you saved with all the progress you have made!