You got this covered. You are strong, valuable, motivated, successful, and you rock!

Good job-keep believing in yourself, you can do this.

Thank you mid and trichdr!! :)

I've been up and down again since I last posted. It's definitely a struggle at the moment. My hair looks pretty bad so that obviously makes my urge to pull even higher.

I just need to keep trying!

It seems like it would be logical that if hair looks worse, there is more motivation to NOT PULL, but it's always the opposite somehow! For me, anyway. So frustrating. You're right, just keep trying.

My thoughts exactly!! Frustrating indeed. I think it's because it already looks bad, so what's "one more" hair? Also my hands are often feeling how bad the damage is, and touching = pulling/urge to pull.

Thanks for the comment manda.

All I can add to this...I know exactly what Manda says is so true...I'm starting over with day 1....and this time, I'm kicking the shoulder of shame to sideways. Best of wishes, and you've got this! You really, really do!

I know how you feel. When your hair is looking bad it's easier to feel like why bother. I to have the problem of feeling the damage which leads to pulling more in the same spot. The problem areas are like magnets for my hands. It's especially frustrating because the more I pull these areas the more damaged my follicles become and I get tons of those kinky hairs that drive me nuts. I pulled them like crazy over the past few months and now after 13 days I don't even see any new growth..

Keep plugging away. Think about your overall progress and remember that the tough times always end.

Thanks Mid. We really do have to do our best not to feel ashamed. It's hard.

Thanks trichdr. Yes, those spots are like magnets. It's a very harsh cycle. Thanks for the kind words :)

I aimed to be pull free yesterday and I ended up pulling 26 hairs which is a rating of 6 for me. Aimed for the same today and I've already pulled 3 (it's 8am). So I'm aiming to pull no more.

You got this...You really, really do!

Keep at it, every little bit we stop really does make a difference!

Keep those hands busy!

So true, every bit of effort helps. Thank you :)

Well I pulled 26 hairs again yesterday (same as day before). I again decided to aim for pf today and so far I've pulled 9 (it's 1pm, I think I'm doing better than yesterday).

I went to yoga last night for the first time in ages and it was amazing. I really want to start regularly doing yoga and practising meditation again. Oh and exercising. Oops.

Your commitment is inspiring. Each bit of effort really does make a difference. Good for you, yoga is great...maybe I'll get back to that and umm exercising too. This baby has served as an excuse for me to be lazy...if nothing else I vow to start again after she's born.

It's so easy to lose motivation. I struggle with it all the time. As do a lot of people I guess.

Pulled 24 hairs yesterday, so that's less.. I resisted a LOT.

Aiming for pf again today. Thank dog for toppik.

Keep at it, you'll find something that kicks in the inner strength button, yoga and meditation are awesome tools to exercise with, and any movement exercise will help keep your hands going other places!

Hurrah for writing it out...somehow, that seems to help give me courage to keep going, you've got this!

I'm finding it mid.. Thank you.

I pulled 22 hairs yesterday. That's less again!

0 so far today, it's 11:30. Got a hair cut this morning and it looks loads better. I hate having so much grey, grr. I was shocked at how bad the bald spot is on the right/back of my head. Gah. It's mostly concealable with toppik and strategic hair placement. I think I've created that spot/worsened it this year while working at my job. And because I can't see it easily without using a hand held mirror, I never noticed it getting worse and worse. Piss. Aiming for pf again today.

Well, the good news is that grey is in for hair styles, it really is. Stay strong, and know that the haircut is awesome to give you strength as you need it. You can do this!

Hurrah for doing all you do!