True, luleee.

Hm I kinda lost track of the past 6 days. Crap. I need to use my calendar again! I know there were a couple of good days in there; less than 5 hairs. But there were definitely a couple of days where I binged, including yesterday. I wasn't feeling well and I think I pulled like 30 hairs or so. Gah. I'm going through toppik super fast and it's so expensive. It just sucks. The crown of my head is a mess. Woah, breathe.... I just need to focus on using my barriers for now.

we are great at forgetting what is good for us ( at least I am anyway)
you seemed to work well with ur calendar before .. so start using it again . and don't forget to stop being hard on yourself :)

Hi girl. Checking in after a long absence. Breathe, yes, breathe. Barriers, babe.

Have you tried tinted dry shampoo? Xx

Sounds like we are in very similar situations with trich for now, although I don't use toppik. Barriers and breathing....I should take Phoebe's advice as well. Using a calender sounds like a good idea!

Hi luleee, that's because what helps is generally not the easy option. Us humans go for the easy. Thanks luleee :) After all these years I'm pretty good at not being too hard on myself :)

Hey phoebe! Breathing is very important. I'm doing a lot of yoga but I want to start meditating daily too.

Hi mrs k!!! No I haven't, in fact I didn't know it existed. Thanks for the tip!

Hey Manda, I'm sorry to hear that you're in a similar position. We both know that the calendar system works for us, let's get back on it.

Ok well I've been trying again with renewed vigour this month. Hairs pulled for June so far are: 5,3,9,20,20. Barriers help a lot. I've put a new calendar up on the wall and I'd really like to keep tracking my pulling as that helps me a lot. I'm getting my hair cut and coloured today which is always nice. Life in general is going pretty well, though I do hate winter.

Calendars really do help a lot! Haircuts are great motivation as well. What color are you dyeing it?

Hurrah for getting your hair cut and coloured!

Thank you for the important reminder of the medical condition. I realize that we often forget the one detail that can give us strength!

Best wishes! Hugs instead of tugs!

Manda - I always dye it that deep red colour you've seen in a pic.

No prob mid, thanks!

Dang, the last 5 days have flitted by. I think I've pulled 10 hairs a day.

You're doing good, keep it up! I know, it's rough when we find ourselves wondering...so keep on reminding yourself you're doing it!

Blah, about 25 hairs yesterday. I'm pinning the top half of my hair back (to cover damage) and this has revealed a new pulling area. I shall focus on not touching it today.

Argh, I can't seem to leave that new spot alone! The pulling is so very automatic, and so frequent. Barriers, stat. Feeling quite anxious. Work has been very boring so that's made me feel very frustrated. It's a trapped, gonna explode type feeling. Yucky. Excess energy or something.

The only thing I can suggest is to fill the thought process of pulling into a different cycle. I know it's hard to explain, however, the surf the wave techniques that I remember give me the few second pause from automatic.

You've got this! Boredom is dangerous... I hope you are able to expend your energy in a positive way!

Hugs!

It's so hard to stop when you are in a pulling phase. I know it is basically impossible for me. Knowing that I actually can't control the pulling in some ways helps though as I try not to blame myself or beat myself up. Just take steps to limit the damage and remove the opportunity to pull xx

Thanks mrs k :) xo I'm not very hard on myself. I just get stressed and sad about it.

Thanks mid :)

Hm, it's a difficult period right now. I have binged the past 3 days. Pms. Plus whatever else. Feeling a lot of negative feelings due to my hair. Ugh. No point dwelling. Barriers today.