Thanks for the imagery Mid!

Aww panthera, that was great for ME to read! :)

Manda - haha, great minds ;) I dislike beating trich also, and recovery also has a finite sound to it, in my opinion. Whereas I expect this to be something I will have to manage for life.

I really need to wear my barriers. There's no excuse! I have been saying to myself almost every time I pull "I just chose immediate gratification over long term gain". It's helping. But barriers will really help the automatic pulling. There's no shame in using any tool or trick that helps me!

You have the strength to keep finding ways to make it work for you! Hurrah! I realized after reading what both you and Manda have written, that "beating" unless it's eggs to whip up a delicious dessert, is not the positive word for this, and it makes sense that it may be adding to the dilemma for some people.

Keep at it! You're gonna make it happen, one way or another!

Thank you mid! Ah, it's great to read other people's realisations, isn't it?

Since I last posted there's only been one day where I was commited the whole day. I scored 3 (0 being the best and 10 being the worst), which for me equals 9 hairs pulled. Barriers barrier barriers, sigh....

You can do this! You can do this! You can do this! Barrier beating busts...barrier beating busts...barrier beating busts!


Come on, smile it out! You are stronger than you realize!

Glad to hear about your low number days. Way to go !!

A 3 is still pretty low! Isn't the goal of that scale to get 3 or below every day?

Hi Manda, yes, a 3 is a good score! I was happy with that :) I was just stating that I only had the one good day, lolz.

Thank you Mid and Trickster :) :)

At the beginning of this month I decided I was going to try to collect as many "good" days as I could (for me that's days I score a 3 or under). So far I've gotten 4 4s. I reeeeally need to wear barriers but I resist it all the time. I think it's partly cause they're annoying, partly cause I don't like people to notice them, and partly because I actually really want to pull my hair. I will wear them today though, I will!

What kind of barriers do you use? Band aids on your fingers? Gloves? So you wear these barriers in public? You are brave. I could not do that as it would provoke questions that I would not want to answer.

Bandaids on my thumbs. I don't mind eating them in front of friends or family cause most of them know about my trich. But at work is rather not bring it up, so I don't like to eat them too often there. If anyone at work does ask, I'll say I cut myself or its to stop me picking at my fingers/biting my nails. I'm continuing on working on letting go of my shame, and the part of me that doesn't give a shit if people know I have trich is getting bigger.

Haha, "wearing them", not "eating them".

And "don't like to wear them too often" not "don't like to eat them too often". Hahaha

Hm, I didn't wear my bandaids yesterday. I chose short term pleasure over my long term goals. Got a score of 4. Bandaids today! I'm feeling good about it. I have the day off and my husband and I are driving to a beautiful part of the state to go to a very good friend's wedding. I won't wear the bandaids at the wedding though, but ill keep some in my bag.

LOL I thought you were serious and meant that you chewed on the band aids instead of pulling your hair :) Glad you don't chew on them :) Have a great time at the wedding.

And good for you for getting a low score of 4

Yeah that's certainly not my cup of tea!

I had a great time at the wedding, thanks :) It was lovely. And I scored a 1 for my pulling (that's 1-2 hairs for me) without even trying that hard! No need to self soothe at all that day...

And today I haven't pulled at all yet. Hmmm.

Band aids are good barriers...I find them annoying to apply constantly, though, and hard to use in public. But I'm glad they're working well for you! Good job with your low pulling days!