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• Bipolar Disorder
  

  U N S A T I S F I E D

  Posted by: lolamb

  Last Reply: OlderCPer 03/15/2018

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  Lately, I've been on a loop.Ever since I opened up my depression and losing friends because of it has made me more bipolar than ever. Every little thing seriously bothers me. From being alone 24/7 to wanting to just disappear because I can't stand the feeling of anger that builds up. I feel so unsatisfied with my life because I feel like I am never going to get out of it. I don't know how to make new friends, nor do I really want to - I am so traumatized by my experience with other...

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  Joined New Group

  Posted by: lolamb

  Posted: 03/11/2018

  lolamb joined the group Bipolar Disorder.

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  update..

  Posted by: lolamb

  Posted: 07/05/2017

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  wow its been a while since i have gone on here. well, how am i doing?i don't know, i feel like i bury the hatchet with my depression.is it still there? of course.but i have a whole new energy with me. i am trying to find my positivity with people.i am surrounding myself with people who don't know about my life, my depression, because i know they will not bring it up and actually let me breathe for once.i don't talk with anybody about my problems anymore - which sucks,but i've learned to just...

• Depression - Teen
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: lolamb

  Posted: 07/05/2017

  lolamb commented on the discussion Why Me?.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: lolamb

  Posted: 12/31/2016

  lolamb became friends with Harlee1.

• Depression - Teen
  

  difficult

  Posted by: lolamb

  Last Reply: drynoch 12/30/2016

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  i just don't know what to do anymore. i am honestly alone. so isolated from everybody. i've been living like a robot thinking i was getting the help that i needed but at the end it at went down the drained when i withdrawal. why lie to myself? why keep pretending that i will get better when i keep thinking how my life actually is? i need to face the facts, reality. but its scary. its scary knowing i have no one to turn to, its scary knowing how quick i can just end it all, but holding back...

• Depression - Teen
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: lolamb

  Posted: 12/28/2016

  lolamb commented on the discussion seriousness.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: lolamb

  Posted: 12/09/2016

  lolamb became friends with amandamill.

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  Hug

  Posted by: lolamb

  Posted: 12/07/2016

  lolamb sent a hug to GumiH

  thank you & of course, open to have friends!
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  New Friend

  Posted by: lolamb

  Posted: 12/07/2016

  lolamb became friends with GumiH.

• Depression - Teen
  

  seriousness

  Posted by: lolamb

  Last Reply: lolamb 12/28/2016

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  I'm completely shocked.I decided to share the news about my depression and suicidal thoughts to the worldand nobody is taking this serious.People are brushing it off their shoulders like its nothing.I would've thought I would get some support from 'so-call' friends,but not one message has gone through. Are people afraid? Do they even care about this matter?Do they not want to deal with someone who's going through so much?Because I know that if I ever succeed in my death, guess what everyone's...

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  New Friend

  Posted by: lolamb

  Posted: 12/07/2016

  lolamb became friends with perlix3.

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  back to square one

  Posted by: lolamb

  Posted: 11/21/2016

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  It's over.She didn't want "negative" energy in her life.She was talking about me.She couldn't handle my depression. She couldn't handle my condition.She couldn't handle my  mental illness.She couldn't handle something that I have no full control of.Aren't friends suppose to be there for everything?Broken promises. Broken boundaries. Who knew I was such a waste of space?She didn't deserve me. She didn't deserve knowing all my secrets.She didn't deserve the friendship I offer to give.She...

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  a letter to my counselor

  Posted by: lolamb

  Posted: 11/16/2016

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  Here's a letter to my very own counselor.Thank you. You have opened up my eyes.You made me realize how horrible humans can be and get.How unfair others can think and act.You have told me things that made me think, a lot.Oh how I wish can tell those people what you have said.But that will cause BIG problem.Funny how that works, huh.Not even a professional can help those little girls.You were the one that was there for me when I was hurting myself.You made a promised - and you kept it.I never...

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  awkward

  Posted by: lolamb

  Posted: 11/15/2016

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  ever since my website launched, its been awkward.the 'best friend' reached out to me after an old friend contacted her. (how embarrassing)and ever since we "forgave" each other, it's been nothing but weird vibes.i thought best friends are suppose to be there in their darkest times?i thought when you are trying to apologize its about the person and not make yourself the victim?how easy was i fooled.but its not my fault. oh no.if you can't accept who i am.understand who i am. nothing between us...