Try to find a DBT group you can join (dialectical behavioral therapy). I did this a few years ago and it was so helpful for learning to regulate emotion when you are bipolar.

Hello Lolamb. Welcome to the forum.

You make it sound like you only recently acknowledged your condition. In my own strictly personals, a new awareness will look larger than life and quite distorted until I have given myself time to process the awareness. Not a good time for making decisions or interpreting reactions from the people around me.

Control emotions? Isn't that something like trying to control the ocean's tide? I let this be another job for simple awareness. I acknowledge and validate my feelings, then decide what to do with them. Most times, nothing is the best thing to do with my feelings. Like that ocean tide, they change continually.

But that is me. . .

Gentle support while you discover what ^it^ is for you. Welcome aboard.

Welcome to the board Lolamb

Have you been diagnosed with bipolar sweetie?.... If you're struggling with depression and perhaps? bipolar symptoms the best thing that you can do for yourself if you don't already have one is to be referred to a psychiatrist

There is stability to be had sweetie and good help..... We have a treatable disorder.....

Big hug.....xo

I can relate. My negative emotions (anxiety, rage, sadness, etc) have teeth, they wash over me and instead of passing they consume me and whirl around and around. I feel emotionally raw all the time, like the smallest thing will change my mood and the entire way I handle life at that time. It's exhausting. But it's bipolar. Feeling things so strongly can be a blessing and a curse.

I try to talk to myself like I would a friend. I try to rationalize my thoughts and feelings and try to calm down. Sometimes reminding myself that it's not real it's my disease can actually help.

I don't know how to stop anger,, I have a friend that deals anger and suicidal, homicidal thoughts....I / we realized all my mood swings were different - she raged, I cried.....

I wanted to share I know what its like, the pain of losing friends (((((BIG HUG)))))) overwhelming, loss and betrayal and abandonment.....

Glad your here able to make new ones, get support by sharing and participating .........

BiPolar is not who you are, it is a medical condition that you have. It might be a good first step to try and identify with it correctly and not throw yourself down the well. Anger and BiPolar disorder are not synonymous, its not a prevalent symptom for most, it can be a totally separate issue. Setting ones "depression" aside and choosing to not deal with it...well, that's a new one that I've not quite heard from someone who has BiPolar Disorder and is dealing with the symptoms of the condition. Perhaps your just denying its existence and its affecting you more than you realize.

In a nutshell, it doesn't sound like you're getting Treatment for the BiPolar Disorder. Do you have Psychiatrist, take meds, see a Therapist? This is not a disease that you can pretend doesn't exist and it will go away and not bother you. It is a disease that tends to grow bigger and more irritating and more intrusive on ones life when you ignore it. Seeing the right combination of Dr.'s and using the right combination of Treatments, i.e. medications and Therapy are the only way to make this monster come out from under the bed and go away. Its hard work, but you can get to a stable point and a quality of life that rivals any other person in the world.

I hope you find support here, friends here and take the advice of well meaning folks who battle this monster on a daily basis for years on end here.