claire36

im bloody knackeredlolbeen out to my daughters brownie fashion parade toniteenjoyed ithad to forgo going to an aa meet to see herand it was worth iti did miss aabut enjoyed watching my daughteri did...

i will try and keep myself soberi will try and keep myself sanei will try and stop my paranoii will try and be sort of rationalwhen really all i want to do is cryand shout butjus for todayi will be...

takes each day as it comeseasy enuff word to write and sayeach day as it comes brings blackness in my lifebut i know someday the light will start to shine againwaiting for the light to start...

im not happy with meself atmnot happy for giving inno i havent had a drinkused another of my self defeating behavioursand annoyed at meself for doing sowhy oh why do i do thisi dont knownoone...

well not quite sure whats going on atm.im soooo tiredwoke up at 11.30am this morning . didnt even hear the kids go to school (dont worry my other half takes them)had loads of blood tests done and a...

 20 days sober nowfeels good pysicallyhurts mentally thobut i know it will get better as the days passbloody hope solot of other stuff going on atmbut dont want to share it yetmebbe one day who...

dont know how i feel right nowfeel sadnessthat i knowfeel very very tiredpysically and ye mentallyyou see i dont know how to live sanelyyep im enjoyin my new found freedomand it is freedomaway from...

fearwhat a horrible wordand also a beautiful onestrange person you may askyep i am strangefear is wot makes us be humanfear is all powerfull and consumingIF YOU LET ITso simple asdont let it affect...

wot is the trutheven i dont knowi know my head is goin funnyi know i feel weirdwot is weirddefine finei know im not finei know im not on ma pity poti know i am allowe to feelmight not like where my...

wel a lot happened jus recentlymy eldest daughter went to 'bch' on tuesday for a big testwell what a lot of emotions it sprung in meyou see i used to call my eldest daughter havin an op at 'bch' my...

been to cannock tonight with my sponser for an aa meetingit was ok. i reall enjoyed my sponsers main share thothat was very good and an insperation to memy sponser is an insperation to me she is a...

been a while since i wrote in here.well im now 5 mths sober and it does feel goodhow have i done it simplethru the help of my new programme of the 12 stepsthe love and support of the fellowship of...

havent updated for a whilethings are going ok for me atmthe dark place is slowly goingand im starting to see the light at the end of the tunneldoesnt mean im over it thofar from thatstill get...

finef - f****d upi - insecuren - neauratice - emointional  thats what fine stands forsounds bout right to me can feel meself sinking into a dark pit of blacknessits overwhelmingtry so hard to keep...

havent wrote on here for a while.havent been online.got a virus that thas knocked me off ma feetbeen ill now since thursdaydoc put me on antiobiotics as a precaution cus me immune system is lowdunno...