claire36

Just want to disappear forver

Got a hell of a lot goin on in my home and outside atm.My self harms burns are getting so bad and I'm actually thinking of drinking 3 bottles of parecetamol liquid.This is bad. Never felt like this...

well im in crisis.. not drinking crisis. my mh.. its appaling.. i actually lost the plot last night.. been to see my doctor today and hes upped my anti ds and told my pysch who is refering me to a...

got itchy feet...feeling very very tired and lonely...apart from ma kids of course who i love to bits......mom has jus gone ofski on holiday abroadi have ''respite'' money wich i get from the...

my 1st big meeting at '''region'' today as a region woteva they are called. will find out today if i get accepted to join the blackpool convention comiteee.... fingers crossed. xx

wow has it really been so long since i came on this website. have jus been readin some of my old posts ........ wot a journey i was goin on back their and i still am3 yrs and 14 days sober one day at...

dont know how i feel right nowfeel sadnessthat i knowfeel very very tiredpysically and ye mentallyyou see i dont know how to live sanelyyep im enjoyin my new found freedomand it is freedomaway from...

fearwhat a horrible wordand also a beautiful onestrange person you may askyep i am strangefear is wot makes us be humanfear is all powerfull and consumingIF YOU LET ITso simple asdont let it affect...

wot is the trutheven i dont knowi know my head is goin funnyi know i feel weirdwot is weirddefine finei know im not finei know im not on ma pity poti know i am allowe to feelmight not like where my...

wel a lot happened jus recentlymy eldest daughter went to 'bch' on tuesday for a big testwell what a lot of emotions it sprung in meyou see i used to call my eldest daughter havin an op at 'bch' my...

been to cannock tonight with my sponser for an aa meetingit was ok. i reall enjoyed my sponsers main share thothat was very good and an insperation to memy sponser is an insperation to me she is a...

been a while since i wrote in here.well im now 5 mths sober and it does feel goodhow have i done it simplethru the help of my new programme of the 12 stepsthe love and support of the fellowship of...

havent updated for a whilethings are going ok for me atmthe dark place is slowly goingand im starting to see the light at the end of the tunneldoesnt mean im over it thofar from thatstill get...

finef - f****d upi - insecuren - neauratice - emointional  thats what fine stands forsounds bout right to me can feel meself sinking into a dark pit of blacknessits overwhelmingtry so hard to keep...

havent wrote on here for a while.havent been online.got a virus that thas knocked me off ma feetbeen ill now since thursdaydoc put me on antiobiotics as a precaution cus me immune system is lowdunno...