jus for today

been a while since i wrote in here.well im now 5 mths sober and it does feel goodhow have i done it simplethru the help of my new programme of the 12 stepsthe love and support of the fellowship of aasimple as thatand ive had 50 kinds of s**t thrown at me in this timestuff before i would of drunk onstuff i would of used as my excuse to drinkand it is just an excuse to drink not a triggerand i now know that now doesnt mean that everthing has been easy thomy old behaviuors havent jus gonei still have them1 is my drinking. that has gone jus for todaythe intrusive thoughts are still their and i try and work on them on a daily basisthe sh thoughts are still their and unfortunatly i found myself resorting to this old behaviour last nightlike i said old beahaviours are hard to get rid ofi work on them on a daily basisbut i am only human and whilst my danger ones i havent used i have found myself resortin to my old sh behaviourits not bad but it hurts and that was what i was craving last nighti am annoyed at myself  for resorting to the old behaviour but it could be worsei could of drank i didnt. i could of run away i didnt. i could of well jumped out of a moving vehicle like ive been fantasing about but i didnt.so out of all of my old behaviours yes i used one but it could of been much more worseas i say what will be will be.sim[ple keep it simpleits hard. not easy but who ever said that life was easy. progress not perfection