SheliaMac

Well... I should have known it wouldnt last long (oh, pessimistic attitude that I have).  The urges have hit.  But I'm not going down without a fight!!!  Today, I will make the right choice and...

Today @ work I took an online course covering "Diversity".  I wanted to share what it said about "CHANGE". People tend to negotiate change in four stages: 1.  They DENY the problem exists.2. ...

What a great day.... And I havent really done anything.  The "great" part comes from being satisfied doing "nothing".  It has taken a while to get to this point, but well worth the effort that I...

I promised myself that I would write in my journal more --- so here goes!   I am GF today and have been since last year!!!  Sounds good, huh?  Ok, 12-31-09 was my last day to gamble --- and this...

I've been reading a lot of journals lately....  I copy/pasted some "gems" that I could go back on daily when needed.  A little inspiration/guidance so to speak....  (the following is not my...

Conscience - the inner sense of what is right or wrong in one's conduct, motives or thoughts, impelling one toward right action. I have a conscience, as I suspect most people do.  Do we always use...

I am doing better, I think some things are starting to sink into my "thick head".  I have been reading a lot of journals the last few days.  Gleeming some great insight from these.   Also been...

One Day @ a time...   I just don't get it.  I would like to say that one day I will "get it".  But I really dont want to wait for that one day to happen.  How do you do it?  I admit, I cant do...

My heart says/feels one thing, my actions speaks another story. A story that I wish I could rewrite. But I cant. I have to live with the story I chose to write. However, the next chapter has not...

Woke up this morning with a pounding headache --- and a nightmare.  I dreamed that me and my Mom went to the casino and I hit a jackpot on the first machine I played.  I didnt know how much I won,...

Continue to be gamble free.  Cant gamble -- I have Alex.  Dont want to gamble.  Do not have the urge to gamble.  But........ I cant quit thinking about gambling.  It is just consuming my mind. ...

The weekend is upon us... Yea!  Alex will be back home tomorrow for 5 days and I am so glad.  I know I cant use her as a tool, but she is like a hammer in my gamble free tool box.  i dont go...

 That's what I feel I should do-- put duct tape on my mouth to keep me from smoking.  I have been wanting a cig so bad lately.  I miss them... But I wont, I wont take that first drag.  Iffen I...

So, I've been home all day, called in sick (that's a whole 'nother story) to work.  Been thinking of  "South of Town" all day.   South of Town is code word that  mom and I use for the...

Still no cig or gambling since the 4th.  Wanted both today, but I did not give in!