SheliaMac

Finally, I give myself a break from the madness...  Just got back from vacation and I still have Alex for 4 more days.  Her cousin called and wanted her to spend the night.  My oldest was leaving...

Day 11 --- It has been easy to stay GF for the past 11 days.  NO money and lots of remorse.  However, the remorse is waning and the money is coming.   Why does this always happen.... I always...

"Many a man has walked up to the opportunity for which he has long been preparing himself, looked it full in the face, and then begun to get cold feet...when it comes down to betting on yourself and...

Wow, I havent journaled since April.  Been reading posts & JE's regularly, didnt realize that its been almost 6 months.  I am not worthy.  As usual.I am doing better, but I still have a lot of...

Life is good and I am trying my darnd'est to enjoy every minute of it.  Lot's of stuff going on in my life, but gambling hasnt been one of them.  At least the last two weeks.  Two weeks doesnt...

It's thursday evening, I'm home and doing better from my mini meltdown.  It's weird how I could go 59 days without gambling, feeling so good about it and then POW -- I go back one time and it's like...

Ugg... how I hate counting days.  But I guess that is what this has come to.  I have got to clutch onto something, something that will get me going on the right track.  Something to get this...

If I continue on this path, one of the 3 choices will be all I have left.Prison -- Not an optionInsanity -- I'm working on this nowDeath -- Well, its coming "by reason of insanity" if I dont do...

Well... since Cloris had the courage to come out and admit something that I know was hard to say, I dont want her to be alone - I will too.   I myself gambled saturday.  I dont like what I did,...

I have actually made it past the 30 day hump, the one month bump.   And it feels good.  I just gotta be careful and keep my work up, not get lax in my recovery.  Not feed my ego and let it start...

Last night I attended an online compulsive gamblers meeting at SafeHarbor --- I really enjoyed it and would recommend it to all!!  The topic was "freedom from gambling addiction" --- everyone told...

This is for those that are struggling, lost and maybe just need a friend right now.  @ home today and watching my "Savage Garden DVD".  This song played and my mind immediately went to DS and how...

Stopped @ the gas station tonight to get ciggies (I know, another bad habit  --- but easy does it, one at a time  ; )       Anyway, I stood there looking at the scratch off tickets and...

Everything happens for a reason... right?  Some things are small, some are big.  Some are tests and some are just little reminders... I happened to be @ my parents this weekend when a family...

Most important thing first --- I am still gamble free!   Hard to believe i've almost went a month without going to the casino.  Almost got pulled into one yesterday --- Had to take my daughter...