Not a good morning...

Woke up this morning with a pounding headache --- and a nightmare.  I dreamed that me and my Mom went to the casino and I hit a jackpot on the first machine I played.  I didnt know how much I won, it just kept racking up the numbers.  Then the attendant came over and said congratulations on winning $30,000.  Wow.... I was already making plans to pay off my debt.  When I woke up I realized it was all a dream and I was still up to my eyeballs in debt--very depressing.    Reality check --- I got myself into this debt because of my behavior that I did not control--my addiction.  I must get myself out of debt the opposite way, self control.  Old fashioned hard work of just paying it down.  No easy ways out---gambling win, inheritance, bankruptcy, etc.  Sometimes I wonder which consumes my mind the most... gambling or debt?? No urges, just twirling thoughts of "gambling" in general.  I will not gamble today, and I wont change my mind!