No longer sober

I'm no longer sober as of today.  Monday I broke my sobriety and last night though I didn't have contact with pornography I may as well have.  I am still engaging in the addictive behavior to cope with my life.  One thing that makes it tough is I have a lot of pre-conceptions regarding life that aren't necessarily based in reality.  Real for me, but not necessarily reality as everyone else is in.  Fantasies corrupt reality, big time.  I worked with Dave and  Mike yesterday.  Dave mentions that in the addiction we cannot see reality and we are stubborn to do so for doing so would mean giving up our drug of choice.    Makes sense!   Gotta run