3 days again.

I'm 3 days sober again.  Trying to feel my feelings is tricky.  If I'm feeling pain, what do I want to do?  Medicate of course?  I mean if you have a headache wouldn't you take some advil my addict says?   Yes I would!  But emotional pain is different.  I must accept that I'm in pain, some anxiety is ok and life isn't unbearable without my drug.  Nothing could be further from the truth!  The addicted brain as all AA says is cunning baffling and powerful!!!  and boy howdy is it every powerful.   Breaking that lie takes serenity courage and God!!!