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I made it through a tough one last night, another wedding, this one was one of my brother's friends, so it was childhood, neighborhood-type people and stuff, and  my crazy brother, and my sisters......

I'm just here for the number, really.  Things are quiet. Hopeful. Afraid to hope. My daughter, I don't know... I hope, and I'm afraid to hope. Better just to... I don' t know... can't think about...

This is a PM I wrote to one of my DS friends Frostie. It's so long, it qualifies as a journal entry: "I struggled too, so very much like you have, for the past 2 or 3 years, knowing I had an...

Talked to my counseler today. Family counselor. Just me, without the family,  but I had no problem filling up the 50 minutes...  I was lamenting to her that there is no support for ED's in our...

I gave Bulimia 30 years of my young life... but the past 6 months have been mine. MINE. 6 months of finding out just how much was being taken from me, all those years... My time, my resources, my...

Or should I say, nightmares.. Every 3 or 4 days or so, I have a dream in which I knowingly take a few sips of a drink with alcohol... I only drink a few ounces, and then a huge wave of...

You know, I wasn't really concerned about underage drinkers at this party, because if we were going to serve beer, I was going to have my SCARY STINK-EYE trained on it the whole time, there was going...

Approaching 6 months sober!!!I actually feel pretty good. But I think I had a drinking dream last night. I can't remember, but I think I drank about 3 or 4 oz of some sort of alcoholic drink... and I...