whitefingers

working on it. or am i? I don't go to meetings. I don't go to work. I'm painting the rental house, that's work, right? Eventually that will have a payoff, right? RIGHT? I hope. I miss drinking. I...

I didn't do much this year for halloween, I was in bed asleep by 9 pm! Yawn... This time last year, I was driving my kids and my daughter's BFF, Charlotte, and Charlotte's mom, Dee, we were going...

I'm finally, FINALLY, after reading about it for how many years... probably 2 years... I'm finally setting aside time to start a meditation practice. So far I can make it about 10 minutes before...

And thank you GOD!  Free of bulimia behaviors, and alcohol, and thank you GOD. I haven't gained weight. I'm not on any prescriptions. I do not have chronic pain. I can run. I can walk up and down...

and they ROARRRRRED their terrible roars!and they gnashed their TERRIBLE TEETH!and they ROOOOOOLLLED their terrible eyes!and showed their TERRIBLE CLAWSSSSAAARRRRGGGHHH!!!I'm paraphrasing... That's...

we took the puppies back today. I'm going to lose it tonight, when I get up and go out in the kitchen, and forget they're not there. It couldn't  be helped though. My daughter no longer lives at the...

I used to feed off of remarks like "Oh, you're so TINY", or "How do you stay so THIN"... Meanwhile I was consumed with staying that way, and I was consumed with food, thoughts of food, getting...

Forget what I said in my previous post, that was some bullshit, whiny face , cry baby stuff... I'm sorry I ever let it fly... but it was what I was thinking at the time.... bad morning... following...

Today. I'm going today. I'm losing it. I'm watching myself fall, fast and hard. I have lost my daughter. I can't deal with her sickness. I can't deal with my own. I can't fix us both, I can't even...