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Is this site all fudged-up, or is it me? I press links, and it goes all hooey hay-wire, jumps to a totally different link... it's like I'm going crazy!!  I'm trying to update a goal, and the...

Negative. Fatiqued. Uninspired. Heartbroken. Desperate. Confused. Remorseful. Pissed off. Hateful. Petulant. Struggling. Praying. Searching. Reaching. Hoping. Trying. Terrified. Terrified.

Went to my daughter's art show last night, at the hoity toity art gallery in hoity toity town. Without pre-drinking.  It was such a powerful feeling! I didn't have to worry about talking too...

My daughter seethes with fury when she sees my face. My heart races when I know I'm about to face her. Sometimes I hope I will have a heart attack and die on the spot.

New inventions to be patended by ME: 1) A Library Hood Cover for using internet IN PRIVATE, without every tom dick or harry being able to see what you're typing on your SCREEEEEEENNNN!!!!!!   GOD!...

I did it! I just waltzed right on in there, and told my doctor everything! EV ER Y THING. And I didn't break down and get all wheezy and sniffy and squeaky-voiced either. Just a tiny bit, but I was...

 Acerbic: adj.- Sour or bitter tasting; acid. Sharp or biting, as in character or expression.  That was me, under the influence of alcohol and an eating disorder. I was  bitter, sharp, biting,...

Last night was another first for me. Going to a family function (big, extended family function) without pre-drinking. Such a huge difference! I was able to just drive there, without having to...

I just came upon this in my old journal from last Fall, my husband and I were attending a wedding reception, and all I could do was rant about two women across the room: "I had to stare at these two...

Why, yes, yes I do, I want a medal, thank you, and a COOKIE too, while you're at it. I quit drinking, on my own, without detox, without a doctor, without a counselor, without a meeting. It's just me...

Why don't they still balance the plates? When's the last time you saw a good old fashioned PLATE SPINNER  on tv? They used to spin the hell outta plates, back in the '60's and '70's, running back...

My parents, sister, and niece are visiting for the weekend. Last night I went into sugar overload, with ice-cream and the big bowl of chocolates and various licorices my mother laid out on the...

I had a so-so day yesterday, spent mostly at the library. Crumply little grinchy-type head-achiness most of the day. Maybe it was eye-strain, that just occured to me. Or maybe it was the vitamins. Or...

I'm a little over a month into recovery now. I wish I could say I feel GREAT. GREAT! How are you? Oh, I'm great, just great.  Grin. Crumble. Cry.  Parts of me ARE great. I'm so relieved to be free...

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