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feeling good

took me forever to find a color I like here... 

 This past Wednesday morning I found myself standing in the middle of a women's lock-down, residential facility for substance abuse offenders/parole violators...  I felt like that Talking Heads...

I was just sitting here, reliving some past hurts my ED has aimed at me... like ya do... I was thinking about the times I tried to look into my daughter's eyes and appeal to her human side, the times...

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I feel good today. It's even a sorta cloudy rainy day... but I'm just kickin back and enjoying some down time.

 I am hurting so bad this week, my daughter has disassociated from me, I gave become the enemy. I have become the CAUSE of everything bad in her life, instead of the person who stood by and plugged...

fer the number, looking for lucky 500!! Weeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

just for the number

It's a gray kinda day... boring... quiet... I gotta get back on my program and start crossing those jobs off the list. This is what I need, a sense of accomplishment and purpose... I need that damn...

17 months Recovery from alcohol and eating disorder, I am truly HERE, I am PRESENT and WHOLE, I am here for my kids. And where did all these FRIENDS come from, I am covered in friends!!! (that's an...

 Posted in Epilepsy forum:  I don't even remember posting this last spring, but thanks, artsygirl08, for bringing it back to my attention. When I originally wrote this, I was about to find out the...

 I know I was the TOTAL INSTIGATOR in my family, running around, trying to get the biggest buzz, trying to make sure to pour some wine down my sister's and sisterinlaw's throats, make sure everyone...