tumbleweed
Status: I need some kind of drug, maybe better see a shrink, so sad all the time.
Mood:
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It's been almost a year since I wrote? Jeez. I need to say some things. That I have to remind myself that a lot of my misery is self-inflicted. I let my mind go places that it shouldn't. ...
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It's been almost a year since I wrote? Jeez. I need to say some things. That I have to remind myself that a lot of my misery is self-inflicted. I let my mind go places that it shouldn't. ...
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Christmas, all I think about was after Joe, after Joe passed away (still hard to say died), we went through the trunk of his car, & there were Christmas presents from the past 2 Christmases the...
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I've been coasting, pretending to be ok, "normal," at work. My husband's right, I overwork myself so I don't have time to think about what has happened, if my mind is occupied, those thoughts can't...
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I'm back to feeling numb again instead of devastated. Cymbalta. I even got the job I put in for & to my surprise, it wasn't like a big deal, I mean, I didn't get any kind of adrenaline rush, it...
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i just feel really crappy. seems like i just don't belong anywhere anymore. my heart is beating real fast like it's in my throat, kind of fluttery. wonder why we go on. how can i last years &...
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wow, been a month since I wrote? I was off work for a couple weeks & did some writing then. now it's back to the grind.Joe's birthday was july 18. Last Wednesday. We had gone to the cemetery...
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I am so so down. haven't been this bad for months. saw a tv judge show today because i've been home sick, & this mom was suing her son, who looked a little like my joe. at the end, they hugged. and i...
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Thursday: about Joe's myspace page, you have to go to the search button at myspace.com, upper right somewhere I think, & if you search on his screen name BETO, you get 7 or 8, so you can search by...
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About Joe's Myspace page When Joe died, wow, I hate saying that. We got his computer from his apt, and after a while we got it all hooked up & looked at what was on it. Well, I logged on to...
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Today is Monday, my day off. I don't know where to begin, I'm kinda lost. So much to do today & I don't know how I'll get it all done, & here I sit. I've been on Cymbalta about a month now. It has...
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Got to sleep in (6:30), felt good but I still wake up tired. Life has become sort of like a prison sentence. You just try to get through a day, with the goal being you are one day closer to the end....
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Been a fast week, would leave for work around 5:50 am & get home around 9 pm, so didn't have time or energy to write. Or get groceries, we're down to oatmeal and cheese, so gotta go today. Keeping...
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