Morning Journal,   What ever may be good about it:Stuck between these 4 walls, hoping and wondering if I will not crumble and fall?Days are so darn long around here, always so tired, must stay awake, two boys are here, weather is so cold, those clouds are really looking bold.They want ice, snow and rain, this creepy weather makes me feel so much pain.Staying awake is so hard to do, but I have to for the boys or this tiny apartment may turn into a zoo.Changing the subject, but not by much, reaching out to a rainbow I fear I can not touch.Freddy may be going to the board once again in March, it will have to snow in hell if they ever let him go.I can't take this much longer, I need the strength of a ox, need to get stronger.But how can one get stronger taking all these pills, waiting and wondering is surely no thrills.I love him till death due us part, but if I could turn back the hands of time, and knew what I know today, I would have turned my back and gone the other way.THE END!These kids are starting already, its only 8:00am, and I kept Baby A home cause he is just getting over the ear infections, cold, flu. Its way to darn cold to send him out in this, plus there is a weather advisory for snow, freezing rain, and sleet. Baby A wants to eat, ok cool, but not junk food this early in the morning, all he wants to eat is brownies. I have to go now, hopefully he/they will eat cereal.                                                       Just Me!