Changingpb
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- My sister left Saturday am. we had an awesome visit. my nephew is staying with me and its nice to get to know him. ive been feeling very very good again. no cravings, spending time with family, not bitchy and hungover:) my large scotty dod is not...
- Im feeling great! I am afraid of that pink cloud again but on the other hand I should be happy and give myself credid for four days. I started working on my moms memory book today. At first I thought id have the family help me. But realized I want...
- I came to a realization last night. I avoided the stop at the cstore and had a good cry and had this thought. ive spent my life being angry at my mom for all the things that I perceived she did wrong. I have never given her credit for all she did...
- we got to check in and mom decided she was not doing chemo. I became so angry I had to leave. I drove home bawling, BUT did not stop for booze and then took an advil pm and went to sleep. Its time to refocus on me and try to get through this tough...
- Mom starts chemo today. I've packed myself a Pam bag with self care for me. Herbal tea, book of quotes, comfy clothes, and if she gets too negative I'll excuse myself for a delicious smoothie they sell on the first floor. I'm there for her but I'm...
- Going to pick my g daughter up at 4. Taking the long way there along the Rocky Mountain front to see the leaves. Music up and it's a new day
- I almost never posted because I am ashamed. But the truth is posting her helped me stay sober 20 days. And I believe a crucial part of my sobriety is honesty, support here and activities. So yesterday I failed. I could give you a list of excuses but...
- mom is getting worse, been at hospital for past three days losts of family drama. I had a four pack in my hand two days ago at the c store and had my debit card on the counter. a voice in my head screamed at me and I turned on my heels and walked...
- I think im kind of leveling out as far as euphoria, or maybe ive just worn myself out getting all my home improvement jobs done. I don't feel as euphoric as I did last week, but im not craving alcohol at all. so many things are better at home, at...
- Made it through the weekend and some pretty intense cravings Friday and Saturday. Get myself out of my head and recognized the triggers, acknowledged them and rode the urge. Found a 3/4 bottle of wine I had rat holed away on Saturday and the...
- It's amazing to me. I never imagined I could get to day 13 and here I am. Sober. Still some touch ups on my house I've dreaded. Hubby's bathroom. Will tackle that today. Why do some men refuse to admit their bathrooms reek of piss? One of life's...
- Thirsty is really working on me this am. Day 12. Wasn't expecting this cause mostly it's been euphoric. So I have to get out of my head. Grand baby and I are heading thrift shopping to find do dad's for our newly decorated house. Pictures, lamp etc....
- So I was cleaning out my closet and in a box I found a 3/4 full bottle of wine. It looked like urine. Then thirsty laid it on thick. It's ok Pam, one sip, you've done so well. 11 days....hubby will never know. You deserve this. Go ahead. I headed to...
- Still sober, going on a weekend and not a craving at all. house is spic and span, my sister will be arriving next week and a new bedroom set is being delivered today. I ordered it when I was still drinking, but now I have painted the bedroom, redid...
- OMG im on day 10. I used to be quite creative. Well turned out that alcohol only hid it, it never killed that part of me. Im refurbishing furniture now with thes new chalk paint. Life is so full of possibilities now that 10 days ago all I thought...