I am PROUD of you for posting:)
Congratulations on day 1.
HUGS
Jen

I feel weak today as far as failing. I'm debating on doing some cleaning or simply taking care of me today. Mom starts chemo tomorrow. Thank you for posting. I have a great deal of regret and embarrassment.

TAKE CARE OF YOU today.....
You have an emotional day tomorrow. Do some self-care, be gentle with yourself and don't beat yourself up. That doesn't help. Rejoice in the days you were able to remain sober and build back up from there.
Just my 2 cents :D

Glad you returned. I hope you find that our support here isn't conditional on your success or failure regarding consecutive days of sobriety.

You had almost three weeks of sobriety before one day of weakness, and that is pretty damn good in my book! I'm sure you'll remember the feelings you're having today and it will fuel your success going forward. Also be sure to note (I suggest you write it down) what triggered your relapse so you can be aware of this in the future. I keep a short list of all my key triggers as a reminder of the events or feelings that push me towards a drink. It's really helpful to refer to when I feel an urge coming on.

So we begin again today. Always here without judgement, always strong together fighting the same battle.

Don't beat yourself up too bad. Rather be proud of the 20 day stretch. You picked yourself up and posted here. That's great. I was where you are last week. I feel much stronger today. You will feel strong again too soon. oxox

It's not my moms fault I drink. I own that. But she's a huge trigger. Has always been very nasty and cruel to me. Being at her house was hard and having cancer has not made her softer but even more negative. Today I have already lit my good smelly tarts and am going to put around. Watch tv. Relax. Steer clear of my mom today. I left her house at 6 am this morning. Granddaughter comes home at 4 today so it's just me. No cravings today. Thank you all for the no judgements. Also I got complacent. Thinking I was stronger than alcohol. Of course I'm not.

It's a beautiful autumn day here in Montana. Unseasonably warm. Going to post often today and sit on my porch :) at the hospital my mom will be at there are aa meetings. I'm thinking of going.

Failure tells you one thing and one thing only: try again!

It tells you that your initial attempt was lacking something---can you afford yourself some "you time" to deduce what that is?

YOU are not a failure. You are winning every time you dust yourself off and get back up.

Peace, love, sobriety,
Sosa xx

If this group helps you that's great. I know it helps me too. It's okay to relapse, it's part of the process. The best thing to do is just start over the next day with a big cup of coffee and a good attitude and try again.

It takes guts to confess a relapse. Believe me, I know they're embarrassing, I've had a few notable ones myself.

It does get easier. The longer you stay away from alcohol the less that you think about it, crave it, have it in the house or even like to be around it. Eventually your life can be completely free of alcohol. You'll get there. Just keep trying.

It's OK to take a few steps back. We've all done it. The important thing is to recognize the slip-up, try to learn from it and go forward. Regardless of your relationship with your mother, tomorrow is a big day for all of you. Stay strong!

(((HUGS!!!)))

You have a tough time up ahead dealing with your mother and her illness. Maybe a lesson to learn from yesterday is that you have to be able to get enough breathing room between you and your mother. Leave the room when you need to and take deep cleansing breaths to get rid of her negativity.

I am glad you only fell for a day... I know with an absolute certainty that today is a great day to be sober.

You did not fail, you are back and you are trying again... you just stumbled on your path.

And here is where I feel most welcome especially after a BAD day!

We all have our triggers, now you know when "mom" is involved have all of your "don't drink" tools ready :) - and we have all been in your shoes before (I have practically worn holes in them)... and I don't beat yourself up - 20 days is a HUGE accomplishment!!! now for 21! never give up.

Smooches and take care of yourself...

I packed a Pam bag for tomorrow to include my phone charger so I can post here. Tension tamer tea, a book of quotes from my best friend and instead of going on a cleaning spree today I sat under a blankie petting my Scotty dog and let the dishes wait. Hubby is bringing home KFC. To bed early tonight and attempting to forgive myself. Thank you all for your love and comments. I was pretty fragile this am. Oh and I took a drive and seen the leaves :)