I came to a realization last night. I avoided the stop at the cstore and had a good cry and had this thought. ive spent my life being angry at my mom for all the things that I perceived she did wrong. I have never given her credit for all she did right. she was camp fire girl leader, a stay at home mom, home cooked meals all three of them each day, had a beautiful flower garden, loves cats, loves animals, collects bells, hauled me all over the state to compete in rodeos. dressed my sister and I very cute, made our clothes.

so im refocusing on loving my mom. ive finished the projects in my house so now im going to do a memory book for my mom and give it to her. when she passes ill have it for my sister and our children.

grateful to be sober today.