ddint do much today. was hoping to go down my cousins house but i never got a hold of him. tommorrow i got an appointmet with the psychiatrist and the therapist...yay. i fucking hate doctors. but i have to be under a doctors care and on anti-psychotic/depressant medication as part of my living condition. if i dont comply my mom will kick me out again. im  also not allowed to drink alchohol. today will probably be another day of nothing. i cant wait till january i proabaly have a job comming to me that would be fucking sick. then i can finaly move out but unfourtenatly if i stop taking meds and stop seeing the doctor and start drinking heavily again, i know itll only be a matter of time bfore im back in the looney bin/rehab.